Gave Up

I would like to gave up.
No work @ office..
Furthermore, sitting next next to JMR make me so nervous..
I am not learning @ FSI...
Dun know how long this can goes on....
I want to transfer out...
No point wasting time forcing myself doing things i dun like....
If only sifu still around this wont't happened...

MKBM

Thursday,on leave to settle SIFU UCM flowchart
As usual out in bright environment to pluck unwanted facial hair
Bus approaching. Driver with cap..
Who...make no notice...
But somehow hide at dad's car sit.
it was D044 bus but who's the driver with cap..
D044 approaching to town. Careful look.
Its MKBM. MKBM with cap on. Smart...
It is that MKBM saw mewith cap on Friday and he follows...
Ha????To discover....
MKBM...any interest in me????
Ha??? To discover??? HOW???

MKBM

sunday...first non working sunday...
feel so uneasy and useless.
go out to have a breeze walk..
Bandage hand. Pain at arm...
i waited for MKBM.
For 3 consecutive days...its MKBM who send me to town..
THANK GOD...
MKBM...to cheer me up...
I am sick.... WORK sick.....
internally sadness..
would like to voice out to MKBM but not brave to say it out
even a simple HI Kawan...
Store 3days able to see MKBM happiness at heart.
Till next week v shall meet..

MKBM, RT, SIFU

Saturday morning....First bus...
Surprise !!!!! What a coincident...is MKBM..
Cheers.....
Rush home again to unload printed stuff and have a quick lunch before going to sifu's house......
Its MKBM again sending me to maluri stn. THANK GOD...
Cheers......
Sad at work but smooth and happy weekend with MKBM,RT,SIFU around.
Good day despite internal pain....

MKBM

Friday...it was MKBM...
i waited for MKBM..
MKBM, u r someone i look forward..
I alighted at Maluri and thank MKBM
MKBM silent type...
MKBM cheers...
I really miss MKBM.
The last was 30th May 2010..

USELESS ME

I play trunk at work..
I am not sick but i du feel like going to work...
I am sick of meeting....meeting and meeting...
I dun know a single things...
rather than look down by idiot ppl i choose to go on mc instead..
But m i happier???

RESIGNED ???

My forth day @ fsi.
I feel so useless..
meeting and meeting and meeting....
i dun know a single thing...
i feel so BODOH???????
I want to resigned..
Too high end...
I dun understand .....no point wasting time and make myself unhappy.
1 month period to be fair...
If things still not smooth then seek transfer....
I CANT contribute...

RESIGNED ???

RESIGNED????

My forth day at FSI.
Meeting meeting and meeting....
I feel so bodoh...
I dun understand a single thing !!!!!!!
Ppl vice r so lcly...
i feel so uncomfortable...
I seek Siti's advice...
Strong....I CAN DO IT... SWIM THRU IT....
sorry, i doubt i can....
I know what me strength and weakness..
I seek transfer..........

History Repeats......

Oh no....no history repeating please...
3 years back Malar was my hope to survive..
THANKS FRIEND....U safe me...
Now i am sick again...I have nobody to look forward to...
MKBM???...yes...MKBM but i hardly see MKBM..
Opportunity to meet up with MKBM is just weekend and chances is slim too...
Malar is now my common friend...
I feel like commit suicide when work doesnt goes smooth..
Gentlemen motto "Smooth Work. My priority"
this THREE years are BONUS to me..
Without Malar i would have die 3 years ago...

Sifu

Wonder how i get to know sifu...
Since sifu left,things are so uncertain..
If only sifu was here i wouldn't be landed @ FSI.
Sifu seeem to recognise my work and know my ability, my strength and weakness.
Sifu the best BOSS i have.
But too bad...what a short period...
Anyway, THANK GOD for giving me the opportunity.

Black Monday

My first day at FSI.
I should have know i got no working luck and colleagues relationship...
I feel so sad alone at the corner.
lucky to have work from Ramalai, Mas, Hasni and Zura...which i am willing to help
Else i m a dummy ...no work @ all...
I feel like crying......
I want to tender my resignation....
How???Why???
Meeting ????Brainstorming......things i hate...immediate Panic....

Sad Friday....Lonely....

Its Friday, May11, 2010.
My last day at FA after joining the unit since April 2007.
well a short sting for 3 year +.
THANK GOD for helping me came across helping sins like Malar, Chan , Taha.
After work...i dismantle workstation and seek dapi help to move.
the rest just look and stare without helping..
the r real asshole....
Internal sadness....from the moment of PC dismantling till setup at new workplace..
nobody help...i am alone....

Fear :-?

next week i will be reporting to a new place.
FSI.... my wish is i can come across a "helping sin" there.
Like the opportunity i have in FA...
Smooth and happy progression..
i have internal fear.....
Kenneth's advice....U can do it...Be brave and confident....

MKBM

Its being a week since D044 send me home for 2 consecutive days over the last weekend..
This week will i have the same opporutnity...NO....
Sat, Jun 05, MKBM on morning shift...
sunday...dun know...i start missing him...
saw D044 @ btr approaching town...
but its not MBKM.....
where is MKBM...
I really miss him...
Its being a week...
anyway MKBM u will be misss......
take k...