Thursday 29/03/12

Back to work....after a day off....
At times i think is NOT FAIR..
Being in a assistant manger post the bitch doesn't know alot...
Then why are u a assistant manager...u are NOT qualified!!!!
Clerk like me seems to know better but is NEVER appreciated or being noticed...NOT FAIR....
So clerical is NOT stupid !!!! Is just that we are NOT being noticed!!!!!
Fuck the bitch...She is real BITCH !!!! An asshole bitch!!!!

Wednesday 28/03/12
I being planning to go on leave today since last weekend
On leave coz members day...and also a day to wake up late
Well, told self i need to have a break...
Frankly, i found that i unable to wake up early nowadays..
Ageing pain here and there...and woke up drenched in sweat...
I am ageing and sick...
Run home chores quickly and board Wahab to Jusco
Shop around and back with Wahab too...
At 6pm...i saw Wahab once again...Oh gosh...
Told self MUST reward Wahab...
Monday full shift, Wednesday full shift...
This is NOT EASY...ITS TIRING!!!!!
Saw T0091 but is NOT MKBM and neither is Hazlee...
Is someone new...
Same case in the morning...Only Wahab is the familiar faces..
Wonder where is MKBM...
On leave ???? Driving other route ???
9uncle...I AM SORRY....I HURT YOU MUCH...
COZ I BEND YR CAR AGAINST THE WALL while reversing...
Straches....oh!!! what a pain!!!!!
I AM SO SAD...I AM SORRY !!!!!

Monday 26/03/12
Initially plan to go on leave for 2 days which is today and tomoorow to avoid listening to bonus gossip and story.
But things change...
Since letter was out on thursday...nothing much to gossip around..
With patient i went to work..
morning saw wahab and timing was 6.40am and around 8.40 pm i saw wahab at kilang midah junction...
oh gosh pity wahab full shift...pity pity
will reward wahab for his responsibbility and hard working...
Saw T0091 but no sign of MKBM...is a lady driver for T0091..
Same goes to yesterday night...Saw T0091 but is not MKBM..
Loss and miss feeling for MKBM..
Wahab do take k and rest well...
God got eyes to see who is good and will reward accordingly...

Sunday 25/03/12

i drove sis and wilson to routine sunday shops to run errand and back home...
turning after turning...slope after slope...I did it...
THANK GOD THANK u45gang...
Tomorrow back to work...Arghh!!!!
I am sick...worst still as i might hear things i dun want to hear...
I got XXXXX months of bonus...I go XXXX for holiday...
But self...Argh...It HURTS!!!!
Hurt deeper is i can drive but family sibling doesnt seems to bother...and wish i get kill...
If the one who can drive is the "KAYU BALAK" then secnario will be different i BET!!!!
Cruel and unfair to me...To be frank i hate my family siblings much especially XXXXXXX.
2 round T0091 pass by but is not MKBM...
Wonder where...i really miss MKBM
On morning shift was wahab and Hazlee...
Both acknowledge me with a smile while i was accompany wilson who was learning to walk...
Smile...coz of the above two friends mentioned...but sad coz of !!!!!!! Ergh???? Sunday...an uncontrol day...i am sick.....

Backdated event

Saturday 24/03/12

9uncle is leaving for melbourne tonight...
During his absence i will take care of his car...
Was told to come in the afternoon around 3pm to take car and drive home...
Initially i have fear...coz this is the 2nd time i am on the main road and this time i am alone...
Wish that someone who can drive eg dad or rikky to accompany me just in case "something" happened..
But none is willing to help so i am alone...I pray hard for a smooth and safe journey home...ONLY GOD CAN HELP....
Accompany 9uncle for lunch and after then i drove home alone...
Smooth and safe journey home... THANK GOD...
THANK GOD MOST and 2nd to THANK who gave me confident is MKBM and gang...if they can drive and so can i...be confident you can make it
Saw MKBM on night shift...
There is hiccup @ turning point whereby left and right was block by car...
MKBM cant go thru...MKBM honk but nobody cares...
I really want to walk over to see if there is anyhting that i can help MKBM...coz 100% the idiot or bastard who is blocking MKBM is eating at the corner shop...
True indeed the idiot came out after his shit meal...ignoring MKBM honk..
Pity MKBM stuck for half an hour...Really want to help but i didnt coz face on powder already...
MKBM i am sorry for u...Wish i can help....

Friday 23/03/12

Bonus letter is out...in fact it was out yesterday where i was reported on mc...
As predicted i wont be getting my bonus and received warning instead..
Not much that i can do...but deep in my heart i hate MA, CKC, TJJ much...Is them to be blame !!!!!
Myself an underperformer...this is a stupid sentence...
I feel so unhappy but pretend to be happy...Drama...
Patient....to pass thru the day....

Thursday 22/03/12
Much gossip @ office on bonus...
I know i wont be getting any and instead i will getting a warning letter as a under perform..
NOT FAIR...find days hard and difficult to pass but still have to carry on...
Told self be PATIENT as nothing that i can do ....
I am just a small unnoticeable fish in the BIG ocean...
But i HATE this 3 persons MUCH in my LIFE...
CKC, TJJ and MA....is becoz of the them is have NO BONUS...
Curse them...Kill them !!! Knowing me i won't....
I dun have this kind of character...i am a kind hearted person...
Patient...maybe i have a BIG bonus everywhere where i have the opportunity to play around with 9uncle car and finally i can drive...
From another point of view maybe this is an even bigger bonus!!!!
Anyway monday 26/03/12 i plan to be on leave as i dun want to hear this bonus gossips....
It hurts....
Another cut i got was when mum told me MKBM stop at our junction to gossip with chic. Incident happened on 21/03/12..Errgh!!!
If previously i will feel uneasy but things change....
I know i have no friends !!!! so why care much....none of my concern

Monday 19/03/12

Morning havoc....why...coz i need dad to send me to Mentari Apartment which is somewhere near to lrt stn...
As i have a rough idea where but in doubt of exact location i have to rely on sign board for direction...
There came noise from dad....
Come on pls be patient...i m so tense up looking for direction and his added terrible sound and noise drive me mad...
finally location found and i alight...
i waited for my colleague and while waiting saw a u45 bus pass by...
i ask self is that u45...and if it is u45 who is it....
i look upon and to my surprise is MKBM....
MKBM saw me and acknowledge me...
I of course acknowledge back and MKBM open door to ask why am i there...
I answer i was waiting for my friend...
MKBM acknowledge and signal off with a smile...
I smile too and smile wide...coz what a coincident that i can meet up with MKBM at permaisuri..
Even MKBM got the heart asking why am i there...unlike som people sending me there also have to perform BIG drama....
At night while clearing exercise paper saw T0048 back...and if not wrong is still wahab...
gosh...!!!! feel pity for wahab..
i saw since 6.10am in the morning and @ 8pm i saw him again...
full shift...this is tiring...even i cant stand....
to reward wahab if got the chance...
THANK GOD who help me with recalling Firdaus's slides..
So hicuup with the black woman laptop....
Day pass with a smile all becoz of MKBM...Cheers!!!!

Sunday 18/03/12

Finally i have to be back with MKBM after 5/6 weeks...
Oh...gosh...what a long period...
To be frank i dun miss MKBM until today meeting...
After the meeting i feel i miss MKBM much...
run errand quickly and to be back with MKBM
MKBM is today top priority...
I have to be back with MKBM else is another 2 weeks waiting time...
I have some goodies for MKBM
Since there is people crowded at fron when boarding i decided to pass goodies to MKBM when alighting instead...
On journey home...i noticed do look back mirror quite often...
Is attention to me coz long time no see each other...am i the key person...????
Towards home i walk to front to pass goodies (Ritter Sport Youghurt Choc and Made in USA version Hershey 8 share pack) to MKBM
My quote : Bang ni bagi...choc dari singapore...training kat sana
MKBM quot : Lama tak nampak...
My quote : Hanpir 2 bulan kan...
Kerja malam i bulan penuh...lepas tu 2 minggu training kat singapore
MKBM quote : Bayar...
My quote : tak...bank bayar...
MKBM quote : Thank you eh...
My quote : Sama....
I smile...i smile even i sleep becoz of MKBM...
Upon seeing MKBM makes me feel i miss MKBM much...wonder why such feeling....

Sat 17/03/12
Miss MKBM on purpose coz self not in proper shape...
Better clean self to give a better appearance...
Skip and board pass by road bus instead
Internal SADNESS when see MKBM on full shift....
I feel SORRY for MKBM...i cant do anything to help....
Just pray for safety and do take care...GOD BLESS
THANK GOD...Finally i DRIVE...
THANK GOD who look after me and THANKS to 9uncle who coach me and give me the opportunity...
I drove 9uncle from his house to my house and to OUG and final destination is tiiwangsa where i alight to take lrt home.


Friday 16/03/12
So busy that i call it the day @7.45pm...
Busy with slides for bossess....
So much work to do which i dun know which to start off with...
Hope bossess will appreciate slides done...but i know for sure NO appreciation from them...
Hope of going back early shredded...stay back to complete slides...
Patient...i get to learn this patient and calmness from MKBM,Hazlee, Wahab and Lokman
Coz @ 10pm there are still working...so what 8pm ????
Calm...Patient as i still have u45 friends still working....
Sleepness night coz hungry and anxious / nervous for tomorrow...

Backdated event for Weekdays (March 5 - Mar 9)

Sunday 10/03/12
MKBM on night shift too...
Take k...
Hope will see MKBM next weekend..
Meanwhile, take k...god bless..


Saturday 09/03/12

Saw MKBM working night shift
Those on shift are new...
No sign of Wahab...coz i have some goodies to reward Wahab who is the most responsible and harworking friend...
NOT EASY to WORK FULL SHIFT.....


Friday 08/03/13

Finally i managed to struggle thru the week...
Is weekend that i am waiting for...


Thursay 07/03/12

Would like much to take half day on 2 purposes....
one is to settle my dental claim and on the hand is to be back with mkbm...
Is been 6-7 weeks i haven't been seeing or boarding mkbm trip
But condition @ office doesnt allow to do so...
Hence, sorry MKBM abd claim to postpone to next week...
Found self useless @ work...Am i that useless...!!!
I ask self...or my talent not being seen


Tuesday 06/03/12

Drama @ home...
Becoz of shares declaration kkf make "noise" and havoc at home...
Is all drama!!!!!
Come on dun do drama in front of me...
I know where you are coming from...drama idiot!!!!

Sunday 04/03/12

Dun know where to go...to learn driving or to monitor who coz got goodies to hand over or to shop...
finally choose to shop....
is sunday and there is an early bus as early as 6.15am...who...too dark and able to see clearly...
then another @ 7am and is dark too hence unable to see who...
then final one is out at 8.15am and is haja...
then saw the 7am bus back from town...and is MKBM
ok...looks like wahab wither on leave or on night shift...
so no opportunity to pass choc to wahab...have to wait till weekend.
how abt MKBM...ok...to town with sis and plan to be back with MKBM..
Spoilt planning as rikky is @ our house already hence sis and i were back with lrt...
I feel so sad and dissapointed as this is the last day i can meet up with MKBM else is a long wait which is another 2 weeks...
Frankly, i miss MKBM. Exactly,1 month i didnt board MKBM bus..but what about MKBM...will MKBM have the same feeling i was missing in action for some time??....i doubt...is just my silly thought...
Being on errand till 6pm evening...but yet errand unable to cover my sickness...knowing i have to back to work tomorrow drives me sick..
Wow someone earns 18K per month....but is this person really worth this pay???? i doubt....is OVERPAID !!!!! NOT FAIR...!!!!!
Where got fairness is this world....

Saturday 03/03/12

Is weekend...yahoo????
Coz this weekend is just normal to me...unlike the normal weekend which i always lok forward to...
coz i was on leave for 3 days hence the different feeling....
saw the first bus @ 6.50am...as normal i peep out...
Is MKBM...wow...early on a weekend...
Ok...so 8.15am bus won't be MKBM and i will be boarding the 8.15am and be back with MKBM
Coz i miss MKBM...is nearly 3 weeks i didn't board MKBM bus...
Ok...run errands and calculate timing in order to be back with MKBM
Too bad...i miss MKBM...or could it be my timing calculation is wrong...
I board Wahab back...Is ok..Wahab is GOOD too....
On the way back saw MKBM heading town...if only i am slightly late i can be back with MKBM but can i stand coz i am damn hungry which make me turn pale...
I have a feeling MKBM is on full shift and true indeed coz @ 7pm is still MKBM
Pity ....full shift....this is NOT easy....
MKBM takek k....God bless you...Rest well....
Hope be able to meet tomorrow, Sunday, 04/03/12 coz i have some goodies for MKBM which i bought and carry with care all the way from S'pore back to KL

Wednesday 29/02/12

Leap year and I was in singapore...
I really ENJOY despite not able to shop much and go to places which i intend to go...
Is enjoyable and we overnight @ Hotel 81 Dickson...
To me the place is so convenient and strategic...
Shopping, Food and electronic shops are within vicinity...
9 uncle bought me a CASIO World Time Watch...THANKS...
Is always 9uncle who buy me stuffs....In REAL APPRECIATION...
9uncle bought me some many things that i really like ranging from bicycle to canon dslr to handphone to watch and clothing and food...
9 UNCLE THANK YOU SO MUCH...FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART....
I will NEVER come across another uncle like you in my life
Shop around and not forgotten my u45 group of friend with prority for MKBM and Wahab...
I bought them chocolate as a token of friendship from me...
Happy days and time flies and is time back to KL tomorrow...


Tuesday 28/02/12

I can troublehooting printer much faster than the selfish idiot but who cares...
I NEVER being noticed....Hence, 15 years pass and i am still a junior in the bank...