mon 31/03/14
eager for lunch break...
went over to see susan...
susan still on spec as eyes not recovered yet...
susan told me tonight she will be late..
late coz stock count...everyone will stay back till 10pm...
oh no 10pm...I am worry about Susan's safety..
hence ask how susan how are you going back at this late..
susan say she will call family member for pick up...
ok....self dun want to disturb...
hence acknowledge and went off...
since susan is late no point self stayback...
sad self home alone....
around 8+++ self whatspp self mentioning wonder how is susan..
self is extremely worry for susan safety...
I willing to stand by and wait for susan...but....
but afraid susan might not like it...
hence self just pray for susan safety....
suddenly at 9.10pm self received an sms from susan...
sms mentioned she is home now...
THANK GOD....susan is home earlier than mentioned earlier...
self reply sms mentioned...self was worried less since susan is back earlier than expected...
take care.....rest early...susan might be tired....

sun 30/03/14
sunday....yes...is  finally here....
self have to go and meet up with susan......
oh gosh....road block...
where to park.....are this empty spaces but is it illegal or legal parking...
round and round and get loss at india town...
oh no...pls help me...i cant afford to miss susan...
i have promise susan i cycle down to be with her...
finally drive illegally to park at the best place which is behind the high court.....
quickly load bicycle and carrier...
opss...self fumble....not use to the new racing bike...
hence self alight and push...
from far saw ppl coming down from lrt stn..
will self be late...pls not...I have promise susan..
I keep to my promise...I want to be with susan...
wanted much to accompany susan...
suddenly from far saw susan...yes is susan...
susan came down the stairs and wait at pave way for me...
self smile from the bottom of my heart...
finally self and susan together...
susan pass me breakfast....bought just for me...THANKS...
then self accompany susan all the way to work...
THANK GOD....FOR THE OPPORTUNITY and I MAKE IT....
self so happy...I guess the happiest in my life....no regret......

sat 29/03/14
not much on susan...
self have to run errand...
send my bicycle for maintenance...
too sad to sell the hybrid bike...
hence self buy back for own use....

fri 28/03/14
understand from susan's conversion yesterday she need to get luggage bag
oh!!! what a coincident....
there is a luggage bag promotion at cimb level and promotion end today..
looks like is a better deal compare to sogo....
hence self watch out for timing whereby is starts at 10am..
around 10plus self went down and have a look...
found that self have got $100 from the collected points....
if susan took the small and medium version then is completely free...
if the big one then have to top up slightly...
hence self snap a few phots of the luggage...
next self steal some working time and went over to see susan..
show susan the snap photo of the luggage....
3 sizes..small..medium and large..
also i am entitled to $100 discount...which only self entitled and i am giving it to susan only...
ah...is a makeup story....the $100 is points collected all this while...
but self willing to sacrifice just for susan.....
then susan have settled down with the big one....
self will deliver it to susan when susan finish work at 7pm later...
lunch break self went over to inform susan that is bought and is kept with me till 7pm...
susan smile and thanks me...susan also says she is lucky knowing self....
self reply with smile...self is lucky knowing susan too....
susan ask am i free for lunch today....
yeah free...why not...if susan buy me lunch defintely i will free myself...
hence at 2pm, we have lunch at subway....we chat and laugh.....
susan is so beautiful.....so beautiful....
happy moments flies.....lunch time over...
hence self told susan i will wait for susan to finish work...we shall go back together
is friday self is early so why not go home first and return back later...
hence rush home and did so regular work...then back to office...
self collected the luggage and waited for susan at subway once more...
susan is finally here....self carry the luggage out and all the way to the station...
susan told me she is very happy and wonder if she can sleep tonight..,
i have the same thought too...i am extremely happy......can i sleep...
also tell susan i cycle down on Sunday to be with you...
susan train is here and told susan to get a seat....
due to the luggage susan have no choice but to stand...
susan signal me thanks and LOYAL....is LOYAL signal...
self so happy that i smile from the bottom of my heart...
is the best friday i have....i guess.....THANK GOD....

thur 27/03/14
self went to bought some gift vouchers for susan...
susan is my top priority...after receiving my bonus
susan really deserve it...
is becoz of Susan's appearance....self was aggressive at work..
after purchase gift voucher self went down to see susan..
but no sign of susan...but saw lindt lady...
lindt lady told me ...susan got eye problem. Swollen..
and susan is away for meeting...back by 4pm..
ok..then self went back to office...
after work self drop by to see susan
what happened to susan...why swollen eyes..
self was sad seeing susan suffer...
self ask what happened and how are u now??
susan reply she is ok...fine..have seen doctor...
at the same time self pass susan the gift voucher...
told susan self got performance bonus...
the gift voucher is a small token of appreciation from self..
self dun know what to buy and not good at choosing...
hence voucher is the best option...
susan ...buy something you like with the voucher...
help me buy something for your mother as well...
susan thanks me...self signal LOYAL...smile....
susan ask me if she can use the voucher to buy luggage beg..
self answer why not...susan told me she is back to Sarawak for ancestor praying..

wed 26/03/14
be brave...self went to see boss..
sound my disappointment to boss.
is history...I cry in front of boss...
is not promotion that I what .....
I just want fairness.....
hope boss can fight for me....
no susan...sad self...swollen eyes....

tue 25/03/13
susan on leave...
hence no point to stay...
swollen eyes...due to sleepness night...
is due to unfair treatment for self...why!!!
I being the one doing all task but I am the loser....
those who are not doing work and idiots get promoted...
NOT FAIR !!!! NOT FAIR !!!!!

mon 24/03/14
at lunch break self went over...
help susan buy biscuit...
in return susan buy me a bottle of 100plus...
but got some hiccups becoz of the security sticker...
then back to office..was called by boss...
boss told me I have 3 months bonus..
even though I have the same and better score compare to peers...
coz I am control by union....really????
I doubt....is just an excuse....not fair to me...
self was so upset due to bonus unfair payout...
also some hiccups with susan....
hence no plan to stay..back with anger....

sun 23/03/14
self abit scare...
where to park and am I confident enough...
family siblings dun even bother......
argh....who cares....I am just an orphan..
orphan...no family...no friends....
then self go slow...step by step....install the carrier
then bike on carrier and to town..
at town self cycle a while and move forward for objective
objective is susan...
train after train...fail...no sign of susan...
ok...susan is never late...self have to go...
maybe is faith another failure..
then self cycle around city hall and saw train coming...
ok last peep....hey....isn't that susan...
I saw susan...I saw her..
ok self have to be careful...cross road
self cycle towards susan...
self call susan : friend and susan ack
2 minutes chat and goes off...
self thank god most for the smooth journey
and thanks most able to meet up with susan...

sat 22/03/14
self run errand for 9uncle...
also drop by at bicycle shop
bought self a racing bicycle..
self like cycling...no other interest I guess...
plan and think about tomorrow arrangement...

fri 21/03/14
no susan please...
self not in good appearance..
also we might meet during weekend...
too much meet up will end up ugly...
hence sad self lie low for the day..

thur 20/03/14
received a sms mentioning be cautious..
there is scam sms indicating their are from bnm..is fraud..
hence self have to inform susan about this scam..
I must protect susan...
hence went over for a short while to inform susan..
then back to work...
again too much work to handle...
self have to stay and stay for susan as well...
train after train yet no sign of susan...
when self about to go self saw susan coming....
my train is here first...but self says let me send you back first..
susan reject and says no point...is late....
hence self accepted Susan's advice and self board train....
self turn back for susan but susan busy hence didn't notice self...

wed 19/03/14
self was loaded with work
come on idiots....
dun you all idiots see I am loaded with work..
sad self...hence self went over late to see susan...
self told susan I am very upset with the work...
BUT I AM HAPPY BEING ABLE TO SEE YOU SUSAN
SUSAN is my instant happiness....
due to work load self stay and objective is also susan
self wait and peep and while but no sign..
hence self stand out a bit to monitor upcoming ppl..
ppl after ppl and finally is susan...
susan walk to self and says I look style in waiting...
ahm....I am style and good for susan only...
lucky train took some time to come...
hence self have some minutes chatting with susan...
finally Susan's train is here and susan got sitted..
self wave goodbye and susan smile and signal loyal friend...
self smile from the bottom of my heart and signal back loyal..
susan's smile and signal melts me...
self was so happy lead to sleepless night...susan is so beautiful...
good day despite being a clown at work....
THANK GOD FOR THE OPPORTUNITY...

tue 18/03/14
susan on leave..
hence sad self...
work and wait for time to go home

mon 17/03/14
yes...back to weekdays...
self look forward to meet up with susan...
miss susan much...can't deny
lunch break self went over to see susan...
susan says my haircut looks good but back portion doesn't look neat
self shy..told susan my hair grow fast...
then we chat for a short chat..while
susan thank me for the packet of grapes...
susan says she wants to wash some and pack it for me to consume...
self says no need...I got my portion...
the pack is special for u and your family..
susan told her mum would like to see me...
hence susan snap a photo of self....
is Susan's mum who wants it or susan...???
self plan to stay for susan
coz as the following days to come I might not stay...
due to no companion...
total failure...train after train and yet no sign of susan...
with heads down and sad feeling self board train and head home..

sun 16/03/14
thick haze during day...
go nowhere due to haze and drizzle
stay indoor to complete office work..
miss susan much....really...I miss susan....
no familiar face....only wahab around....

sat 15/03/14
self have to be back to office to complete some pending work..
good too....at least another chance to meet up with susan
after work self went over...
self went and show susan my complete yellow and red wafer box
both boxes from susan...
contents is also present from susan
susan smile...red cheeks....
I luv Susan's smile....Susan's smile melts my heart...
as susan is busy and someone around...self then go back...

fri 14/03/14
eager for lunch break...so that self can go see susan
I miss susan much...very much....wonder why???
saw susan but not much conversation...
then bought a packet of kikkat and off I go...
coz is hazy outside and self care much for self....
self went to bought susan some fruits...
as usual susan reluctant to take....
finally susan took but is it share among colleagues...
no please...don't  share with colleagues...
Is strictly for susan only....from self...
susan crowd is huge and self is solo....self shy....

thur 13/03/14
self on leave...
run errand and took a break
went to shop around and did self maintenance
coz plan to go over with corporate attire to see susan tomorrow

wed 12/03/14
self plan to stay...
but should I stay...ok stay for susan
I been a week self didn't go back with susan
work and work...lucky to have colleagues around...
finally time to go ....
when self walk pass from far self saw susan leaving too
hence self goes slow...hope can be with susan...
saw susan behind...but self know chance is slim
coz susan train is here in 2 minutes...
self stop walking coz knowing susan wont walk up to meet up with self
self stand stagnant at a point look dumb already...
I guess susan saw self ....susan knee up and raised hand up to wave goodbye...
self acknowledge and wave back...
sigh...what a waste....why such a planning!!!!
self sad but happy too...coz susan did wave goodbye to self
wonder does susan have a heart for self????

tue 11/03/14
susan on leave
hence self be good..
stay indoor...complete work and home sharp

mon 10/03/14
lunch break self went over to see susan
susan thank me for the egg tart
susan ask : yesterday I come after or before game
I responded : I come after game...
the gang eat at puchong...
self saw some fresh from oven egg tart
hence bought some for you all to enjoy
susan told me is oily and got lard smell
well self listen but able to answer coz I dun eat this kind of food...
anyway susan thanks me...
susan you are welcome...
in fact the main person is you....
not much work....work completed hence no stay
back home @ 6pm..

sun 09/03/14
self have to be office to complete some work
self monitor train after train
yet failed to monitor susan presence...sigh!!!!
then complete work and rush home
then run shopping errand....
miss susan much but wait till tomorrow...

sat 08/03/14
self drove to buy some egg tarts to susan...
after bought egg tart rush to sogo...
saw susan around....self please..
told susan I have bought some egg tarts for her and her colleagues to enjoy
actually top priority is susan...
susan ask me do I want to eat anything....I buy for u....
self shake head mentioning no.....
susan feel hungry...ok...go ahead...enjoy while hot and crispy...
self have to go too...
I miss susan much...despite seeing today....

fri 07/03/14
no susan pls...
as self appearance could be bad too...
have to wait till weekend

thur 06/03/14
loaded with work..
self actually can stay till 7pm for susan
but after some thought...no...
no coz self in bad appearance today....also..
too frequent waiting for susan might fear susan away...
hence self alone home wit head down...

wed 05/03/14
keep to promise...
self anxious for lunch break...
finally lunch break is here...self went over..
meet up with susan...
to me susan looks extra pretty today.....
self keep to promise...buy the pouch version kikkat
pouch to susan..in return susan gave me 2 mug...hahaha...
we have a long chat and self went back to work..
despite susan told me dun wait for her self still wait..
work till 7pm...and rush out....I might be late...
but no high hope....susan might avoid self...
hence leave it to faith...no peeping...
but self unable to cheat my heart...I miss susan.
my eyes' keep staring to the coming ppl...
looks like a saw susan....susan walk towards self...
susan call upon self...friend...
my heart melts...susan voice is so sweet...
self ack and show susan I have 2 mug...
my friend gave me...self smile ...
train is here....saw susan get sitted...
but self regret unable to wave as susan sit is hidden...
THANK GOD for the opportunity...THANKS...

tue 04/03/14
susan on leave..
no point stay...
complete work and rush home..
must do self maintenance...
have to be in good outfit when meet up with susan tomorrow..

mon  03/03/14
self uncertain whether to go half day earlier or later
after much thought...I still put priority on susan
self go off the second half of the day..
hence when lunch break self went over to meet up with susan...
I miss susan much....
susan looks pretty and fully recovered.....
told susan self half day back to hometown for some reason
susan told me got new stock...
if you buy give me the transparent pouch..
self say ok...I will...but not today...self need to be home...
then run errand...
ard 6pm sms susan to inform self have arrived hometown..
no reply from susan after much wait...sad self...susan never cares...
look at timing....its 7pm...time susan going home..
I bless susan have a safe journey home...
suddenly received reply from susan...
sms cheer me up....it read like this...
knowing safe is good....self smile...
thank god...smile in sleep too...