mon 30/06/14
lunch date with susan....
we have lunch together...self extremely happy...
told susan self sad when admitted coz....
coz I wont be able to see susan herself...
I miss susan much during that period...
at the same self gave susan the t-shirt I bought for her...
susan like it but have to exchange for a bigger size..
ok can...no issue...I will ensure susan can fit and like my present...
also THANKS and APPRECIATE susan do blessing for self when admitted...
if only moments stay...is just me and susan...
susan , she is so beautiful....her smile melts my heart....
sun 29/06/14
as usual....cycling on weekend
objective is susan...
cycle and cycle and about time self will stand by for susan
susan arrived and waive to acknowledge self...
we chat for a short while....if only moment stay...
susan so beautiful....my heart pound fast...
self look till susan disappear from my eye
ok...susan is safe to her working place...self can leave...
I smile in sleep THANKS to susan...
sat 28/06/14
is members' day day 2
self must go...went with family siblings...
physical body goes floor by floor but in mind ONLY susan
finally self went to bought 4 boxes of choc from susan...
susan she so beautiful...unable to deny...
then self bought a tshirt for susan...
shy to give on the same day...
will wait the day both of us have lunch together...
fri 27/06/14
finally self able to meet up with susan
almost 2 weeks self in pain without susan
self peep from office and what a coincident...
is susan...is susan...what a chance...susan so beautiful..
then around 10.00am self went over but susan not around
self round a couple of times...I can't go without susan...
coz I beat thru the crowd to come in and without susan self feel bad..
finally final rounding susan is here....
susan saw self ..she's so beautiful...
short chat and tell I return again during lunch break...
have to go back for exam and during lunch break self went over again....
show result and short chat...
self smile....susan invite self for lunch on coming Monday...
yes....self so happy...susan so beautiful which self can't cheat self...
I guess I have XXX with susan.....but wonder how susan feel.....
may god bless self....let susan know I miss her much...
thur 26/06/14
self on leave ...
objective is to rest and self maintenance
coz tomorrow susan is back..
self have to be in good form...
but turn out to be a running errand day..
self miss susan extremely much...
eager for tomorrow whereby susan is back to work...
wed 25/06/14
nothing special...
work and work...
but in heart...self miss susan much...
tue 24/06/14
self back to work...
lucky with the amount of work load....
self able to handle...ok..
self miss susan much...
mon 23/06/14
self still on leave...
need to go clinic for follow up
result fine....I have fully recovered...I guess...
self sms susan self ok and back to work tomorrow...
susan did reply and ask self to rest few more days...
why not back to work on Friday the same goes to susan...
something disturbing self....why sleepless night since admitted..
sun 22/06/14
self went back to office to see what's pending...
must be lots of mails and outstanding tasks..
go slow...clear it slowly...
self miss susan much...wonder where is susan...
self sms susan informing susan self discharge...
susan reply with blessing...
self smile in happiness...I miss susan much...
self home but still sleepless night...why???
sat 21/06/14
susan sms self today as well to ask condition...
thanks for concern...at least I know susan care 4 self this few days...
honest self miss susan much...
self discharge...
oh...finally....THANK GOD....
self have fear in hospital...
unable to sleep at night for 3 consecutive nights...
why ???? dun know...
maybe over sleep when sick...
self miss susan .....in appreciation that susan pray and care for self...
fri 20/06/14
susan sms to ask how am i today...
thanks for concern...
self was so happy to receive susan messages.
coz susan will never sms unless is .......
at least i know susan care for self this moment.....
thur 19/06/14
surprise...self received sms from susan
it mentioned she is on leave from 20/06 to 26/06
gosh...thought of going to see susan before she goes on leave
but no such chance...self very sick and finally admitted
admitted due to dengue fever...
self reply susan that self admitted but no response till night..
self was alone warded....have fear....almost cry....
lucky mum is here to accompany self...
I OWE MUM FOR THIS !!!!
MUM HELPS ME A LOT THIS ROUND...
HOW COULD I EVER REPAY !!!!
finally susan send me an sms asking am i admitted and which hospital
self was so touch when susan mentioned she is coming over to see me...
susan and husband would like to come over to visit me...
oh no.....thanks for concern.....but doesn't want to trouble susan...
self also in bad appearance....hence self rejected Susan's visit
since self rejected Susan's visit.....susan wish me speedy recovery....
also susan mentioned she will pray for me...
THANKS SUSAN...IN APPRECIATION...I MISS YOU MUCH...
wed 18/06/14
self still on mc...
sick...really deep sick this round...
tues 17/06/14
self on mc...
sick ...remain at home
mon 16/06/14
self was not well since midnight...
thought of not going to work...too tired...
but self go just becoz of susan...
coz have inform susan self got exam today..
hence self went to work but in deep pain every part of my body...
at last unable to stand....goes off during lunch break...
but top priority is to complete exam and to show susan my result...
hence went over to meet up with susan ....
lucky susan was around.....self show result ...
It was susan who encourage self to concrete and pay attention to work....
susan ask me back: "isn't it pay attention to me and to come over to look for me"
i look at susan without reply and smile...
but deep in heart is YES....my objective is susan
susan I guess you know the answer well too...
then self went off and back home to rest...
FEVER and pain all over body...
sun 15/06/14
self unable to cycle today..
susan was aware as I have informed susan a night before..
lots of task to complete and to attend dinner tonight...
hence have to sacrifice cycling but we still meet up as usual like normal cycling sunday..
I waited for susan arrival....she's so beautiful...
susan bought me breakfast and gave me a special bar of orange flavour kikkat..
self took gifts with a smile ....smile in sleep I guess...
later after work completion at office self turn up at Susan's workstn
objective is to see susan once more and say THANKS...
susan acknowledge my thanks and smile...so pretty of her....
sat 07/06/14
self still hurt...keep asking why...
I treat susan like gold...
but susan treat self like trash...
sigh....I was in xxx but no intend to go and see susan
is due to self still hurt...
self hurt but who cares...
susan might not even know...
I miss susan but does she know...
susan might be "enjoying"...but self the naïve one waiting here....
SIGH!!!!!!
fri 06/06/14
eager for lunch break...
is time self can meet up with susan after a week
honest self miss susan deeply...
what about the other party...
self have to move around the crowd
finally self saw susan...
notice susan got someone around...
self notice susan treat this lady good
soft touch all over hand and body...
but susan treat self cool only....
knowing sale going on self pack lunch for susan
stand by just in case susan is busy with sale..
might have no time for lunch...but as usual no appreciation...
notice susan treat self bad compare to others...
self feel hurt and sad...why????
thur 05/06/14
no susan pls...DAY 4
self on leave...
on leave to run errand....
but self went over to see susan
no nearby...peep from far..
susan is busy working
she is marvellous and so beautiful
if only self can go nearby.....
I miss susan much....honest...
why self is not born as a xxx
if self a xxx I will definitely marry susan..
I wont let susan carry heavy load of stock...
I will care and protect susan forever...
sad and painful self seeing susan carry heavy stock..
wed 04/06/14
no susan pls...DAY 3
self attending final day of omega training...
pay attention to learn...
is beneficial to self....
finally training is over....
learn something new...
have to brush up....only self the stupid one in class
tue 03/06/14
no susan pls...DAY 2
self attending omega training...
pay attention to learn...
is beneficial to self....
but despite paying attention self unable to catch up
moody self and miss susan much
mon 02/06/14
no susan pls...DAY 1
self attending omega training...
pay attention to learn...
is beneficial to self....
sun 01/06/14
understand from susan yesterday
susan herself is on leave too...
gosh...self will definitely miss susan longer
susan on leave to send children to attend national service
sad self...low profile...
hence, lockup and study for tomorrow training..
