Saturday 29/10/11

This is a backdated event recording
myself alone at home...as the rest away to spore
well... while waiting for sis to come monitor bus flow...
morning shift was hazlee, haja and wahab
plan to town with hazlee but plan might be different as i have to wait for sis to come before i can go off ...
finally i am to town with hazlee...
plan to gave tong garden packet peanuts and 100plus can but unable to do so as there is passengers at the front sit...
well since know timing and flow i calculate timing so that i can be back with MKBM
after visiting uncle at his house i am back to town...
i ask self....can i be back with MKBM for today as well...
waited and came bus...erghh....is tomato...
i went up bus too but planning to get down should i see MKBM coming to town in the opposite direction...
feel despair along the way home...coz i dun really like to be home with tomato...
saw on the opposite flow ...is T0091...but is Hazlee.....
how come is hazlee....what happened to MKBM....can MKBM replacing Haja...
coz now i am boarding tomato...T0091 to town is driven by Hazlee and left T0150...
unable to montior coz T0150 did came back but moved fast...but based on action i doubt is MKBM coz MKBM goes slow...could be Haja...on full shift???
some special this weekend...went to pasar malam then watch smurfs movie....
finally check doors and call it a day.....
but in sleep i do hope tomorrow i have th chance to see MKBM

Sunday 30/10/11
baby sit wilson....i cant hardly sleep well...coz wilson requires attention at times to ensure his safety..
morning.....as usual the first to town will be Wahab and true indeed...
as there is house chored to complete monitor thru shift...
morning is wahab , hazlee and someone i dun know(must be relief someone)
came evening....who is on afternoon...
is wahab, baldy and tomato...gosh!!! pity wahab on full shift...
the only thing i can do is to reward Wahab when board his bus to town...
wahab is GOOD and responsible snd punctual compare to the rest...
so looks like weekend end up with dissapointment again...
is being 2 weekend i noticed MKBM on leave on weekend...
thought weekend is the ONLY opportunity but hope shredded....
no matter what MKBM remain the one i miss throughout the weekend.

monday 31/10/11
if assumption make is true MKBM will be on morning shift today.
an early bird bus...its 6.10am bus heading to town
i of course busy body and in heart hoping is MKBM
i went to have a look and saw is Wahab..
high probabaility is Wahab coz only Wahab good this kind of responsibility..
but main concern is still MKBM...where is MKBM...
but no matter what take care of self and becareful while on duty....
will i have the luck to meet up with MKBM during the weekend....
of late notice MKBM rest on weekend...
this is a disadvantage to me coz weekend is the day i look forward to in order to have the opportunity to or back from town with MKBM..
For few weeks this look forward point trashed...sad....

Friday 28/10/11

I been having sleepness night since thursday night...
why...eyes and mind not resting...despite tired...why???
Friday is the day i am looking forward to...
I have agenda and plan to go back with MKBM...
Can objective be achieved...
Told self looks like i have to sacrifice renew time deposit in order to wait for bus...
I am uncertain today's timetable but know that the first bus is by Wahab...
I put on corporate shirt which i hestitate a while...
Actually i dun like people to know where i am working but since today's agenda is MKBM NEVER MIND...
Waited for a while a norm bus stop came bus...
Yahoo...is MKBM...
MKBM smile and i smile back...
I board bus and greet MKBM "Bang"...
THANK GOD...Agenda can be accomplished...heavy burden to work and back to town is not wasted...
Almost home i walk to the front....
My quote : Bang ni belanja...
My quote : Saya ada takan kawan tak ada...smile...
MKBM quote : terima kasih...
smile ...coz mission accomplish...THANK GOD most...
Next trip MKBM back from town is 7pm, 9pm and the last at 11pm whereby MKBM using short cut...MKBM turn in town midah as if bus going to town...
Saw MKBM with jacket on...yeah...is cold out there...
Pity...do take k.....god bless..

Wednesday 25/10/11

Public holiday...Deepavali...
Yahoo...another day off...i luv holiday...coz work looks dump...
Will MKBM on morning shift today...
6.45am the first bus...to me its look like MKBM but mum told me is Wahab...
Monitor thru...next is tomato and final is Hazlee..
Then came Wahab again...Wahab saw us all...the whole family...
Wahab sign to acknowledge and smile...
Cheers...Wahab is good and responsible...
Came evening...saw MKBM driving T0150 who is tomato driving it in the morning...
Hazlee on full shift...oh...pity....
MKBM on night shift...omg...pity...is cold out there...
MKBM pls take care of self...
I miss MKBM much...is been a week since we last meet last week...
MKBM take k and god bless u...careful driving...

Monday 24/10/11

This is a backdated event recording...
Is Monday...argh...to work but i dun feel fit for work..sick..
While thighting shirt and belt saw bus coming out...
Quickly i ran downstair and went out to stand as if i am waiting for bus...
Who is that....too dark...if not wrong is MKBM...
I hands up to acknowledge MKBM and MKBM acknowledge back...
But MKBM stops bus for a while...why...maybe MKBM thought I am waiting for bus...For a short while coz no sign of me bus left..
Yes...THANK GOD...MKBM is back...
So MKBM is on leave during the weekend...Sigh!!! Weekend is the opportunity and yet i miss it...
At office i feel uneasy thru out..sick..body feel warm and feel like vomit...
I have no work and look silly so why sit dump and sacrifice self...
So pack and go to clinic...need to cure self as friday need to go singapore...
At clinic and then to tm stop to wait for bus home...
While waiting for bus feel like want to urine...so cross over to menara olympia as waiting for u45 might take at uncertain timing...
Ops while at menara olympia saw Haja pass by...so argh....loss opportunity and back with lrt and have to disturb dad to pick me up

Tuesday 25/10/11
On MC to accompany sis to pantai medical centre bangsar and then to klcc to relax self...watch 3D - Lion King show...
Morning the first bus @ 6.45am is MKBM...
So next round will be 8.45am - 9.15am...
Can i make it to town with MKBM...
Is self i will wait but with sis accompany answer is no no...
Sigh!!! another miss opportunity with MKBM
Come evening received shocking sms...9uncle admitted due to high pressure...i feel shock and sad...what happened...why???
Hope tomorrow i have the opportunity to town with MKBM
I am sick so dose off early...
ZZZZZzzzzz.......

saturday 22/10/11

i being waiting for this weekend since the beginning of the week...
told self please be good...weekend i have the opportunity to or back town with MKBM
Its being weeks almost 2 weeks i didnt see MKBM...
finally is sat..monitor thru...
no sign of mkbm..
is wahab, baldy in the day and left hazlee only at night..
no choice but to wait for sunday...

Sunday 23/10/11
first bus was 6.45am to town...this must be wahab and true indeed is him, Wahab..
Only Wahab got this responsible attitude..
Came next is baldy and finally is tomato....
Sigh!!! No sign of MKBM for today as well...
Why..What happened...Where is MKBM...On leave....
Pity Wahab...full shift...
Baldy also full shift but i have no sign of pity on him...coz baldy bad and he cheats...
Hazlee on night shift too...which came in to midah twice and mia throughtout the night...

weekend turn sour and disappointed...
but any somehow MKBM pls take k of self welll..
MKBM you will be miss..hope can see you real soon...
Take k and god bless

Friday 21/10/11

Hours and hours pass...bell rings...yes...release from prison..
I being looking forward to weekend as i know MKBM will be on morning shift..
Long time didn't board MKBM bus to town...
It's 8.30pm ...saw bus coming out...who is this...
I mind i have someone with this characteristic...Wahab...
As usual i busy body...peep out...
Surprise to see is MKBM...if not wrong MKBM on full shift..
Sudden sadness...pity MKBM...full shift...not easy...furthermore is being raining whole evening...cold out there...
MKBM...pls takek of self...alight passengers...off light and back home to rest...
After much thinking finally my RM100K have to be readjusted...
Kenneth and Malarvani might have less share..they are wealthy compare to my u45 gang of friends..
MKBM and Wahab can have bigger portion...

Strike...THANK GOD...Yahoo

Wednesday 19/10/11

Yahoo...i am happy...happy happy very happy...despite some unhappy moments in the office...
smile from the bottom of my heart...
Why??? What happened???
Oh...knowing today self is on half day and know that MKBM is working morning shift...
My agenda for today is MKBM...Is being some time since i saw MKBM ....if not worng close to 2 weeks...
Some special on attire today...I put on the corporate shirt...
Knowing that corporate shirt ONLY allow to be wear on Friday i cover it up with my jacket...
Morning at 6.05am saw bus pass...but who is that...i miss...
Can it be MKBM ....with me is 2 possibility...either wahab or mkbm
Call phone if mum saw MKBM today around 8.15am..Yes...
Ok...i must leave 12pm sharp else i will miss MKBM but i have fear i might miss MKBM but i pray hard in hope to be back with MKBM coz todays agnda is MKBM..
As usual i waited at tm stop...
around 30mins wait came bus...i almost misss...i waived bus and it stop..YAHOO!!!! Is MKBM
MKBM smile...i of course smile wide and smile from the bottom of my heart...YES> THANK GOD....is am back with MKBM
I board bus and touch to deduct bus fare...
MKBM quote : lama tak nampak...
I smile and didnt reply...
Smile and ask self...MBKM miss me...MKBM counting days we meet each other???
Yes...MKBM is true...is being long time since we meet each other...
almost home as front is crowded with students i didnt proceed to the front...
I alight at the back and acknowledge THANKS to MKBM
MKBM acknowledge back and smile...
FIRST: Must THANK GOD much ...
SECOND : MKBM i do miss MKBM much...
Is being raining long life rain since MKBM alight me...
Saw Wahab working full shift...i pity Wahab
Hazlee at night too...do takek out there...
Will reward when board bus...

sunday 16/10/11

heart so sad...again why so...
sunday..i have this sickness since chilhood...
i am 75% not right on sunday...
knowing that wahab will be working morning and on sunday if not wrong the first bus will be 6.45am...
hence up in the morning @ 4.15am to complete so washing as there are lots of washing to be done and add on from sis
yes..wahab indeed the first bus but not to town is back from town..
no choice but to wait another hour coz today agenda is wahab...
bought wahab some goodies...is better to give now else dun know when...as timing might not suitable to either party...and goodies might not be fresh...
Hazlee the first bus to town...no choice but to hide and skip Hazlee's frist trip...
Waited and waited came Wahab...
Pass Wahab some goodies mentioning is from dad to avoid mis- confusion...
in return Wahab told me Raja Chulan road is closed today...
I reply ok...yeah i knew is closed for ocb cycle malaysia...
anyway thanks wahab for info...
haha..."MONEY TALKS"....is true....
MBKM where ...i was cycling in thought its MKBM but is baldy...
Where is MKBM ....no sogn of MKBM..rather worried and miss feeling..
anyway do take care...god bless..

saturday 15/10/11

is friday 24:00 which is saturday morning already...
i doze off as early as 9.30pm as i am real tired...
suddenly i heard bus approaching and strange is coming out...
out of curiosity and busy body i peep from my room...
hah...is MKBM...why that late..
suddenly i feel so fresh and unable to get back to sleep...
i ask myself...am i fortunate..i really pity MKBM
why people are asleep while MKBM is still working..is unfair !!!
sis plan to go sogo and as usual myself will accompany...
actually i intend to wait for bus which i feel there will be one turning in to midah about that timing
But dad volunteer to send us to btr stn...
on the way to btr (near home) saw MKBM working afternoong shift coming back from town...
MKBM look sad ...i saw MKBM uncertain wheter MKBM saw myself...
Is 10:10pm at night and heard bus coming back from town...is MKBM on jacket already...
Yeah...is cold...i feel cut and sad for MKBM who is still working and working on night shift makes me feel neasy...
MKBM may god bless you and please do take good care of self...
i will reward you when i board your bus...

Where??? Rest Day

Sunday 09/10/11

Sunday...i am usually loss and uncertain on sunday...
Worst is my group of u45 friends not on duty...
I like slightly out of mind....
Up at 6.30am...thought of going back to office to do some printing..
coz dily printing invite bitches gossip
ok..monitor buses...
will MKBM on morning shift???coz yesterday MKBM was on full shift..
T0091 was the first bus to town...Shit...miss...who could it be...
MKBM or Hazlee...Lucky that T00091 came back to midah and saw is neither MKBM or Hazlee...someone with cap..unknown to me...
then the second bus is driven by tomato the bus i took to town..
at btr HUKM came the third bus overtook us...i driven by Wahab..
So conclusion is MKBM is either on afternoon shift or MIA today..
This adds sad and make me dun feel like going back to office..
but teluctantly i went back to office too...
i am back with Wahab..Wahab is good..will reward him the coming days
evening came...monitor thru...no sign of MKBM...T0091 is driven by the petite malay man who use to drive u44...
Neither is Hazlee...MIA...
Evening to night only saw Haja and the u44 gentlemen..
Add on to sadness is sis and sean going back to puchong...
Errghh...i am so loss...and unhappy...:-(((

Sad!!!Loss!!

Saturday 08/10/11

Backdated event
Sad……sad……sad…..
Thinking back of every moment
Makes me recall back some memory
Not too little not too much…
Sigh!!! I am sad….Who cares and who can cheer you up….
Strange…I am up since 2.00am in the morning ….sleepness night….why???
Morning at 6.50am saw the first bus coming out heading to town…
Who…peep out and saw is MKBM…
Yes MKBM is working and is morning shift…
I been waiting looking forward to this weekend since the start of the week
I am loss and found self useless of late…why….
Also found self is out of control on Sunday….why…why…why…
In addition, I have loss interest in work and become lazier….
Get self prepared and ready to lrt taking MKBM
Waited and waited with heavy load (2 laptops & wires & drinks for MKBM)…
Finally MKBM is here….
I board and MKBM didn’t notice me…until I show MKBM my TNG pass…
I think MKBM was caught be surprise…SMILE and say HI…
I smile and proceed to the back to get sited…..I am pale today….I am too tired….
Approaching maluri station I press bell to alight…
MKBM saw me and acknowledge me…
Someone saw MKBM action and look out and back….
Ha…dun be busy body…..
I earned MKBM’s acknowledgement. I saw MKBM ack and return back with a smile acknowledgement
Bus stop and I walk pass MKBM and ack MKBM again…
MKBM smile and ack back…
Smile smile smile….Smile wide…Smile from the bottom of my heart…..
Sudden noon thru evening some change of mood…why…
I found that people and even family siblings are making use of me….
Once their intended mission achieved I am rubbish…
Heart crack…and to make it worst was saw MBKM on full shift…
I have nothing to gave MBKM to enable MKBM pass thru the tired days…
I feel so sorry for MBKM and feel sorry for myself too…
If only I dun belong to this world anymore…sadness might not happen…
So after deep thought….there is some changes in my what if amount.
MKBM can larger share….maybe RM10K????

Wednesday 05/10/11

need to go for private part check up...
up slightly late coz i am tired too....real tired...
the first bus was @ 7am..who..yes...it was mkbm..
lots of agenda for today...but still hope can be to town or if so happen mkbm on full shift i can be back with mkbm...
is being a week long i didnt see mkbm and on mkbm transport dyas are even longer...more than a week...
but no matter what mkbm remain the person...
back to mbc for interview..really really wish i can make it through..i want to be back to mbc...
semantan makes me lazy and tired...
i have no one to depend on...in hoping GOD can help me thru...
THANK GOD...
It was a long wait home...the one who came is Hazlee..
OK. He works hard..reward with drink