Sad!!!Loss!!

Saturday 08/10/11

Backdated event
Sad……sad……sad…..
Thinking back of every moment
Makes me recall back some memory
Not too little not too much…
Sigh!!! I am sad….Who cares and who can cheer you up….
Strange…I am up since 2.00am in the morning ….sleepness night….why???
Morning at 6.50am saw the first bus coming out heading to town…
Who…peep out and saw is MKBM…
Yes MKBM is working and is morning shift…
I been waiting looking forward to this weekend since the start of the week
I am loss and found self useless of late…why….
Also found self is out of control on Sunday….why…why…why…
In addition, I have loss interest in work and become lazier….
Get self prepared and ready to lrt taking MKBM
Waited and waited with heavy load (2 laptops & wires & drinks for MKBM)…
Finally MKBM is here….
I board and MKBM didn’t notice me…until I show MKBM my TNG pass…
I think MKBM was caught be surprise…SMILE and say HI…
I smile and proceed to the back to get sited…..I am pale today….I am too tired….
Approaching maluri station I press bell to alight…
MKBM saw me and acknowledge me…
Someone saw MKBM action and look out and back….
Ha…dun be busy body…..
I earned MKBM’s acknowledgement. I saw MKBM ack and return back with a smile acknowledgement
Bus stop and I walk pass MKBM and ack MKBM again…
MKBM smile and ack back…
Smile smile smile….Smile wide…Smile from the bottom of my heart…..
Sudden noon thru evening some change of mood…why…
I found that people and even family siblings are making use of me….
Once their intended mission achieved I am rubbish…
Heart crack…and to make it worst was saw MBKM on full shift…
I have nothing to gave MBKM to enable MKBM pass thru the tired days…
I feel so sorry for MBKM and feel sorry for myself too…
If only I dun belong to this world anymore…sadness might not happen…
So after deep thought….there is some changes in my what if amount.
MKBM can larger share….maybe RM10K????