Wednesday 14/12/11

on mc...sick...no...i need to go pantai for blood test
at least to complete some medical checkup before i resign..
medical checkup is expensive...lood test...actually what is wrong with me..
am i suffering from mild heart attack or what...
always burning red an hot checks, diffuclt breathing and bad breathe...
since around monitor bus shift ...saw wahab follow by mkbm
as usual 8.15am is mkbm...and without fail the indian/maly lady is sitting right in front...and to my surprise mkbm pick up chic too...
wow chic so sexy...skirt so short and breast so full..
where go vegetarian fish in this world...
but non of my concern...no pain cuase soemthing else which is more painful that is bothering me...
then myself rush to town planning to go for dental checkup...
thought i will be to town with wahab coz only saw this 2 friends working today...but to my surprise is lokman..
ha..i am luky..manage to get bus and is lokman
lokman is good and he waited for me as i am not fully ready when bus arrived...
to thank lokman i went to sogo purposely to get a roll of oreo and a bottle of mineral water for lokman hoping i can be back with lokamn
upon complete errandto tm stop...
i guess my timing shd be coreect that i can be back with lokman..
but o my surprise is mkbm...
mkbm quote : balik cepat....
my quote : ah balik cepat ni...
all the way back mkbm never look back mirror as mkbm is busy chatting n elderly malay lady sitted in front...
well well well...at least i am back but i am not happy despite is mkbm sending me back...why???errghhh???dun know...
alight and mkbm signal and as courtesy i signal back..
night...9.10pm...is my very TRUE sentence...
i am useless...i wanted to end my life earlier...
but do i have to guts to end life...
commit suicide by cutting nerves...no..i am not brave enough..
jump from high rise building...figget...no dt dare....
maybe drinking poison...!!!! can consider...
i am really hopeless and useless....
assume i am dead i wonder if mkbm,lokman,hazlee,wahab,haja..miss me.
i knew the answer is NO...who cares...
ergh....that's life...