Monday 02/01/12

Its second day (2) of yr 2012..erghh...just the 2 day and i feel so bored & useless in life...and there are 363 days more to go...
lucky is public holiday..replacing the first day which falls on sunday...at least another day off...
i have no plan for the day...have to stay indoor to learn and understand my current work...
at the same time i did some monitoring...coz i have to give out the diary and calender to hazlee as i will be away for the rest of the days..off to spore..joining kkf staying @ shanngri-la..
left 2 buses only...is tomato and hazlee..
ok..watch out for hazlee and gave hazlee a desktop calender one which get from brother kenneth office and my pendrive diary..
hazlee is happy and thank me...i smile only....
suddenly mood changed..i dun want to join kkf to spore...
i know i am not happy even i go spore for a short break..
why waste hard earn money and outcome is not happy...cancel trip..
i monitor from evening till night and notice no bus until 8pm there is one ...peep out...is wahab...
oh...wahab is working night shift today...pity wahab who works full shift yesterday...
its 8.30pm...heavy rain...oh...wahab and mkbm (if you are working night shift) please be careful...heavy rain out there...
knowing that self need to go to work tomorrow my sickness arise...
i feel so uneasy....
at times i think can i resign...i can cope with my daily expenses..
i have no children...i dun spend much..i never go for good food...luxury items or expensive holiday...
if i pass away hard earn money will go to someone and this people wil spend and NEVER cares those bad and hard pass day i went thru...
resigned...but is it too early...i m just 40...
mental problem....headache...