sun 17/02/13
initially plan to go to office and back with mkbm
but no sign of wahab ...so no point to town and back with mkbm
notice mkbm did notice of house
but sad to inform mkbm, mkbm you wont be seeing me at tmstop...
self "lock" in house the whole day....
doing nothing...mental sick...
low self esteem.....why the day is so long today...
but at least someone did remember self...is night now....
is brother kenneth...self almost burst into tears....
brother kenneth invite self for tian kong praying....
actually self plan to go too....
but who am i....afraid someone there doesn't like self

sat 16/02/13
is day 7 ....everyone birthday....
ops surprise to see mkbm working...
too bad that self got errand to run hence no opportunity meeting mkbm...
but self was please to see mkbm....
not happy seeing mkbm on full shift.....not easy tiring....
while others are celebrating and enjoying...come have alook at our house....noisy and quareling....what a family!!!! shit!!! damn it...

fri 15/02/13
yahoo...offday...
went to brother kenneth's office for business reopening after cny break...
happy and enjoy moment and break free...
brother kenneth gave me $200 for angpow and noted that self angpow was different from the rest...self got more or reverse !!!! uncertain...
then had lunch and then went to brother kenneth's house for visiting...
smile...some enjoyable moments...
if only mkbm is around ....miss mkbm....

thur 14/02/13
self have to rush to complete slides as self is off tomorrow...
i did hear clearly what idiot wants and ask self to follow this format...
but when self deliver work...get blasted that i am doing rubbish...
why idiot say one thing then suddenly change the idiot mind...
and doesnt admit!!!!!
ahhh....self was so upset as hard work goes to recycle bin...
redo all over again....rush to complete and stay back to show off work..
patient....self is off tomorrow..yahoo...

wed 13/02/13
first day back to work after cny...
self get blasted...normal....
what i did is rubbish.....
what others did is gold...
not fair...

tues 12/02/13
day3 of cny...nothing much to do....
send sis back to her house for praying and some housekeeping chores
then to shop around....is a worst and boring shopping i had....
actually self have no intention to go to that particular place to shop...but still go to please sis...also thought is somewhere new to visit rather than the same old boring places...
evening time send sis and wilson home...
at night self alone watch tv...some nice drama on..able to watch till the end without falling asleep....as is late at night and tomorrow is a working day only left self alone awake...slight fear.. self was alone find it difficult to get asleep...
then at 11pm...hear bus coming out...is mkbm...coming out at 11pm..
then hear mkbm alight passenger 2 house from ours...
so why the fear...mkbm is still out there working ...
i still have companion...with this comfort self ......able dose off...