mon 22/07/13
self feel pain when seeing susan persuade people to buy..
wonder how self can help...
self send out sms to asking help...
but sad to know self is just an idiot to friends...
none responded and self feel cut....
but never mind...self will help susan where i can...
at lunch time self rush over to buy 5 packs from susan...
have a short chat and susan advice dun eat this too muh..
high in sugar and drink more water...
self feel touch with this advice...THANKS...
susan overtime tonight due to some promo on going
hence self send sms asking to be careful and take care...
susan also ask am i working in cimb...
wonder how she know....
must be she saw me entering cimb bank on sun...
also sms to inform .....
self being working at bank i can help if in need banking help

tue 23/07/13
busy like bee...
non stop working....
disturb sleep at wee hours....
susan came in the picture...
ehmmm.....sleep else turn idiot at office...
is just tuesday long way to weekend...

wed...
when to chat with susan..
self honest told susan i cant be home for long...
I will miss my friend much...
i am in jb while friend in kl...
but susan told me going back to hometown to visit parents is top priority
but self still reluctant to stay for long at hometown due to missing susan..
susan smile and says up to me as long as i am happy...
further chat and hen off i go...

thur 25/07/13
self far from susan
self at semantan to complete some work...

fri 26/07/13
self is so happy....
finally is friday the opprtuniy to go over to meet up my friend after a day not seeing each other...
rain...how to go over...
wait rain stop and off i go...
i gave susan a small present and susan says she wants me buy me lunch
self add on ...my pay day is out...why not i buy you lunch instead..
self so happy to hear susan is buying me lunch...
chat and smile and happy moments with susan continue after work..
thank god...self smile...even in sleep....

sat 27/07/13
arangement for the day is perfect...
is old man, u48, mkbm and wahab..
but avoid of friend especially mkmb...
too muh meeting each other only ends up fist of face...
but self applause to wahab....

sun 21/07/13
saw susan at lrt
oh what a coincident....is faith i guess...
pop into someone i miss at station...
initally self was unaware it was susan...
suddenly saw kikkat ad on thsirt sleeve...
i thought i was day dreaming ...
later found that i am not and is indeed susan...
saw susan in lrt but too late...got to alight...
i guess susan saw me too...
after work went over to have a short chat..
self did sms too that day...
inform susan she looks good today ...
susan advice self to go slow at work...take care of self
on the other hand loss interest with mkbm
i guess mkbm is fade up with me too due to too frequent..
gave water bottle but no thank you...

sat 20/07/13
self miss susan...hence when over but control self...
over look and go....pls dun do anything more...
back with mkbm....
silence trip...

fri 19/07/13
self loaded and self the star...
non stop work from 7-5pm...
good too...at least there is work so that self can dream less

thu 18/07/13
blasted...but self is the one who did all the ground work..
due to not able to speak well credit goes to other again

wed 17/07/13
today is a good day...
susan working...
go over twice....despite heavy workload
hi bye and off i go

tue 16/07/13
susan on leave..
no choice...
patient for the day
eager for tomorrow

mon 15/07/13
finally susan is back...
self burst into happiness
though susan is gone for good...but ehmmm...
we chat and i gave susan present..
nothing much...just a small gift...
self smile and burst to happiness...
caribee ....can you sleep tonight...
or too happy until cant sleep....

mon 08/07/13 to wed 10/07/13
self sick.....flu attack...
rest at home...
while resting all sort of hallucination thought
is this kikkat friend of mine....
ergh!!!! what is happening to me......
situation make worse as mkbm is nowhere to be seen
3 consecutive days...no mkbm at all....
come on caribee.....you can't be like this.....

thu 11/07/13
self back to work after 3 days rest
cough and cough and cough...
loss appetite too....
whole day only consume a bottle of post and a raisin bread....

fri 12/07/13
start of the day was excellent
i saw mkbm ...notice mkbm have attention to our home too...
self  smile in heart upon seeing mkbm....
well at work....things are smooth too....
saw some old colleagues and have a short chat...
come lunch break drop by sogo with one intention...kikat...
notice kikkat friend not around....
immediate change of mood...heart crack...
what happened to self and also where is this kitkat friend
why the sudden change in self....immediate sour face....broken heart....
then another round popping in sogo after work....
yet no sign of kikkat friend....heart crack confirmed.....
my kikkat friend is gone....
things  goes "bad" the whole night...
ergh....will self able to sleep tonight...i wonder????

sat 13/07/13
understand self well....true enough....
self unable to sleep the whole night.....
missing someone much.....why such an impact on self...
frankly only 2 -3 hours broken sleep...
finally self decided to go bank to office....
also to drop by opposite to firm things up...
first round kikkat friend no around....
second round when self going back...
yet no sign or shadow of my kikkat friend...
sudden dumb on self....
confirm our relationhip ends......HEART CRACK!!!!!
then board lrt to tmstop on order to be back with mkbm...
rush....i have miss one friend...i cant effort to miss the other...
yes..finally mkbm came....
this is a family trip..first time in history...
trip with mum , sis and wilson....
notice mkbm did look back mirror being objective still self...
as heart is broken yet another cut when fat ass is around with mkbm...
2 deep wound....it will take some time to heal....
reach home as usual self goes to front and gave a box of kikat to mkbm
my quote : ni bagi kawan....salam adilfitri...
mkbm quote : belum lagi...
my quote : nanti tak jumpa...
mkbm quote : smile....
reach destination....self carry wilson down....
my quote : terima kasih kawan....
when mkbm turn pass our house self again ack with a smile
so do mkbm ...smile....
but self still DEEPLY miss this kikkat friend....!!!!!

sun 07/07/13
mind loss....come on.....stay focus....
monitor and found that there is no early bus...
earliest was 6.45am and is old man....
then follow by mkbm, wahab and someone new...
mkbm second trip self saw fat ass....
have no intention to board mkbm...
why sudden loss interest in mkbm ....
target went to kikkat...erg!!!! why!!!!
finally self wait for wahab the one i salute most.....
self board wahab and back with who...wahab or mkbm...
if mkbm what to buy and will fat ass around.....
when self out from gadget shop self saw mkbm passby....
as time runs and i think i still have the feeling for mkbm...
self rush to next stop in order to be back with mkbm...
finally mkbm came and notice me ...
sorry different place...never before self board at this place...history...
then notice at time mkbm look back mirror....
mkbm uses shortcut to send me back forgo the rest...
despite there is people alighting at btr...
self walk to the front and chat with mkbm...
mkbm : pergi main..
me : tak...balik exam...dua paper....
satu pass satu lagi koyak...
salah tiga soalan....dah koyak....
cuma boleh salah dua...
itu yang menyesal...kena re-sit.....
mkbm : face expression...
reach destination...self alight and thank mkbm....
after some thought...self still unable to decide...
mkbm or kitkat....
is 8:40pm...and i have firm up with an answer...
i am LOYAL to MKBM....only MKBM !!!!

sat 06/07/13
self get prepared and objective is this kitkat friend..
why all of a sudden target change to this kitkat friend....
erhm...self must be "SICK"....
back to normal routine and found that routine for the day is excellent...
is old man,mkbm,wahab,young chap...
strange feeling today....
saw mkbm but mind went to target this kitkat friend instead....
hey...caribee....come on...i can't be unfair to mkbm....
floor after floor self finally at kitkat counter...
smile and kitkat friend saw me...
kitkkat friend ask why am i here today
well my reply was simple....didn't we say see you tomorrow...
hence i am here today to see you....
grab some goodies from kitkat counter and off i go...
before goes off self offer 2 bottle of cute mineral water
then self go back to kitkat counter again to give straw
coz without straw you definitely cant drink it...
kitkat friend told me the drinks offer looks funny and cute...
hestitate to drink...where i bought it...
well the giver is funny too...so do the drink...hahaha...
then proceed to payment and finally goodbye to kitkat friend..
told kitkat friend i have bought many this round...
hence i wont be buying anything from you this soon...
kitkat friend says...well we see each other every day....
not necessary come to buy choc...you may come by to say hi...
erhmmm.....self have to go...guess what...
kitkat friend told me her name....
i am called susan...
the whole evening till night something about self just not right..!!!!!
kikkat friend is on mind....why!!!!.....lots of hallucination thoughts...
why!!!!! come on caribee.....what is happening to me...

fri 05/07/13
the day i am waiting for...
members day is back...the is a grand one...
first thought is kitkat...
went to kitkat stop and grab some goodies and short chat..
self bought some choc from kitkat counter ..
kitkat friend says thank you and see me tomorrow...
ok...see you...self smile and walk away...
then return back to counter again to offer food
....but this kitkat friend decline...
hence offer food to another friend who sells bis...
ergh....at night in sleep self when hallucination ....
weird thought with this kitkat friend...ops!!!
caribee.....be good...dun start anything!!!!!!pls...

mon 01/07/13 to thur 04/07/13
nothing unusual....
work as normal....
up at 5am and back from work by 6.30pm...
back from then proceed with night routine and dose off....