sun 25/08/13
self need to be back to office to complete some work..
hence of course first destination is susan working place...
self grab a bun and notice susan saw self...
hence self walk down and have a chat with susan..
told susan self have make some gain on her behalf...
how to give susan the gain...in term of cash or cheque..
susan reluctant to accept...ok..respect decision...
susan is GOOD...not a materialistik person...
i like susan much...v chat for a while...
self smile and some occasion susan do smile too....
her smile and susan companion makes me "drunk for the day"
invited susan to bank open house but self know susan wont attend...
if susan not attending so do self...no fun without susan....
no sign of mkbm...could be on leave..pity full shift yesterday...

sat 24/08/13
finally after a month plus i am back with mkbm..
is a late evening trip with mkbm..
unexpected trip coz i hardly back at evening...
towards home self proceed to front and gave mkbm a stree ball
my quote : ni bagi kawan...
pergi bola tadi...sponsor bagi...
mkbm : apa ni...try to open box...
my quote : bola...
mkbm quote : main bola apa...bola tampar....
my quote : tak...bola keranjang...
my quote : kalah teruk...laugh aloud...
mkbm quote : tak pa...mkbm laugh too..
this is the first time self and mkbm laugh along...
my quote : tu yang buat tak bermaya dah...
reach destination...self alight..thank mkbm..
finally feeling for mkbm is back....
but still miss susan most....

tue 20/08/13 to fri 23/08/13
no sign of susan...
could it be wrong timing or what...
miss susan much...and deeply..

mon 19/08/13
after work drop by to tell susan report obtained...
will analyse info and keep susan updated.
no bad intention...just want susan to have better lifestyle
also dun want to see susan stand all day pursuing people to buy..
feel sad when seeing the above condition...
wonder how self can hep susan..

sun 18/08/13
self plan to go office...
if go office must go sogo too..
sogo of course objective is susan..
but wonder if susan is working or not???
finger cross hoping susan is working..
yes....susan is working...
self call friend and gave friend a desk calender and 2 bottle of mineral bottle..
initally friend reluctant to take my gift but after a while is ok...
self told friend self go for game...
later part self sms friend that i am loyal and wil help friend gain some side income...good luck from friend..
despite seeing friend self still miss susan much...
no sign of mkbm....could be taken post raya break...
on whole day is wahab...saw XXX sis with wahab...
i guess there most be something fishy...there...

sat 17/08/13
wahab the best...
send me back and self reverse back as cars blocked way...
feel so guilty for wahab.....
wahab is GOOD and deserve to be rewarded...
routine for the day is good...
is oldman, u48, wahab.....
no sign of mkbm....
self miss susan much.....

fri 16/08/13
saw susan back to normal place...
self dare not go...
peep and go..

thur 15/08/13
the last day self can be with susan without others around...
work and work and eager for 12.30pm..
finally the right timing is here and slef went over...
we chat and smile and deep chat...
is the longest chat i have with susan....
roughly half an hour chat ....self even help to sell kikkat....
i inivited susan to out bank open house...
but susan rejected coz she is on excursion trip on that day...
i really hope susan can come and join me....
after work went over again to pass some share info....
v chat further and guess what....
susan buy me a box of nestle wafer....
susan knows i like the box much and she got me a box...
i burst into happiness .....happiness from the heart...
i show the present to susan and the cereal lady...
all of us smile and of course i smile to best....
THANK GOD....GOD have bless me for the day...
told susan i wont be coming tomorrow coz you move down...
i shy to come down coz.....lots of woman gossip....
susan says...you shy....as reply i smile...
then went off as susan got relatives coming
self not convenient to be around....off i go..
i smile...smile wide and smile in sleep...
sleepness night....too happy...

wed 14/08/13
finally the day is here...
at 12.30pm...finally self went over to chat with susan
self was so happy to see susan..
i hope the same from susan too...
we chat and smile....
told susan i will come again after work to get 3 packs of kikkat
since weather out there is so hot
self went to vending machine to get 2 bottle of juice
is for susan....hot weather...so juice to cool down....
but susan is reluctant to take the bottle of jucie
coz her working place is selling it too..hence is not a good gift...
understood situation hence self took back the juice for self consumption..
but self got another gift for susan...
is special ink smooth gel ink pen...is gold and orange color...
susan accept gift....self smile...
chat further and off i go....

tue 13/08/13
susan is back to work...
but self promise not to go over....
too frequent is no good for either party.
oh...what a day without susan..

mon 12/08/13
self dress up so well....
even surrounding and neighbour say so...
i agree...my outfit for the day is the best...
there is an objective behind the best outfit...
is susan...the person behind the objective..
scroll up and down....no sign of susan...
ask and found out that susan on leave yesterday and today..
sigh....best outfit on the wrong day.....

sun 11/08/13
thought of reward mkbm but too bad..
mkbm is off today...
visit dr bala and have a breeze chat...
i respect dr bala...
miss susan much....
susan you are out of my sight but not out of my heart....
mkbm and wahab too...
susan, i might not see your face but i remember your smile..
you were so beautiful on wed 07/08/13..which i can never forget...

sat 10/08/13
self back to office with an objective...
susan...
self settle office task and off to see susan later...
upon entry no sign of susan..
then walk down...yet no sign...
ergh....this is NOT good.
scroll up and down...for twice...no sign...
ergh.....what a sad day...
head down all the way back...
where is susan...still on leave???

fri 09/08/13
second day of raya...
go nowhere got evening need to go out...
surprise to know is still mkbm working on the second day..
2 consecutive days...day one and day two of raya..
ok...i shall reward mkbm accordingly...
deserve to be rewarded due to hard working...

thur 08/08/13
first day of raya...
guess what .....surprise to see mkbm working..
self hav no plan to board mkbm hence skip it...
mkbm working on raya...
my salutation for mkm hard working...
public holiday...close...susan off as well..

wed 07/08/13
brave..i have to go see susan...
else i will go mad over the long break without susan..
lucky to know susan is around...
told susan i need to get some stuffs from her..
need to attend open house...
told susan i prefer the version with free crunchy
susan ask me to check it out down there...
ok..i will check it out...
susan quote : come i check it out together with you...
susan walk down together with me...
wow self smile from the bottom of my heart...
since stock for free crunchy finished we proceed back to the top...
susan get me 2 pack from the box and she proceed to the cashier with me
susan even pay for me...but i rejected...
is my gift to open house friends...
if for self consumption i wont mine...i will be extra special...
hence self pay and return to $50...
when susan took out $50 and pay and self reject it..
by accident i have a soft touch on susan...
after payment we have a short chat...
erghmmm......she so pretty today...so cheerful.....
again after work drop in once more for additional stuff for helina...
susan ask would i like to buy some other stuffs...
self reply no....but after some approach from susan ...
self went over to have a look......is cereal...
actually i like eating cereal but i prefer kikkat more...
my shopping list here is only kikkat....
further chat and off i go...
smile...smile and smile...cheerful self....
THANK GOD...
what a prefect day..

tues 06/08/13
self unable to stand anymore
went over and to susan workstation
no sign of susan
where....left due to me???
i scare someone away???
yet another dull day..

mon 05/08/13
i miss susan much...
but keep to promise
not to disturb
hence whole day life is dull without susan...

mon 05/08/13
miss susan much...
she is always on my mind the whole day...
finally unable to trick/bluff self...
went over to sogo but escape susan workstation...
after work skip trip too...
come on...stick to promise...
else i wil scare susan away and no sign of susan is even worst...
dull and unhappy self
miss susan much...

sun 04/08/13
still too tired due to sleepnees night on Friday..
hence overshoot 5am alarm.
up and a short while came u45..
is 6.45am sharp and I can bet is wahab…
only wahab is punctual and responsible
true enough is wahab and glad that wahab is back to u45 today..
hence self plan to jusco to get some stuffs…to board wahab
monitor thru….no sign of mkbm….on leave???
well weather is good…hence go cycling
cycling with different objective….
is not to meet up with mkbm…
cycling to calm thought on susan…
actually self wanted much to be back to office with one objective…
objective is susan…self miss susan much…
but stick to principle…no meet up…..
cyle and cyle to sunburn self…
need to be more macho ….so that I can win susan's heart!!!!!
NO. self not bitch. I dun want to be 3rd party….
I wish susan the best…but deep in heart susan remains THE ONE!!!

sat 03/08/13
whole day mood spoilt….
bad mood…and nothing seems to interest me
even u45 gang routine doesn’t attract my attention too
saw mkbm working despite his birthday…
mkbm target is fei hai….else is just a naïve kid to mkbm…
self just avoid mkbm…
no plan to be with mkbm and have double self hurting…
I am so confuse with susan sms….
actually what is the meaning behind it…
how should I reply without hurting susan…
honestly I think I have  a heart for susan….
its really hurt….

fri 02/08/13
no plan to go sogo….but finally did went over too…
accompany friend to complete some shopping…
of course at the point of entry I have eyes on my target
whether to chat is different story…
coz self is not in good outfit….
but finally cant escape my miss for susan…
went to chat and stupid me even havent eaten despite dirt hungry..
self when a buy a cup of chatime for susan…
knowing is almost time susan have her break
at least can enjoy ...have a break....
this cup of chatime drink spoill the day…!!!!
coz at night receive sms from susan. A surprise sms….
sms mentioned she is married
husband waiting for her to be home for dinner..
ok….self panic at first but later peace down…
ok…self a principle person…
I know what to do...I wont disturb you anymore…
wonder can i stand days without seeing susan???
self feel cut and burst to tears….
sleepness night….disturb…

thur 01/08/13
wow so fast is august……
self feel dull the whole day…..
stay put at office…dun go sogo…
told self too frequent only ends up fist on face…
silence and dull the whole day…

wed 31/07/13
planning to go on leave but plan cancelled due to work load…
back to office to do the needful…
maybe is faith I am back to offce for work…
guess what…during self make timing for lunch break @ 3pm…
bump into susan at bakery shop…
is susan who call me …self was caught aware….
susan look cheerful….after 2 days off…holiday somewhere????
of course being bump into self have mood change…
more aggressive at work….
self turn into market planning to chat but no sign of susan…
hence back to office to complete pending task…


tues 30/07/13
self being transported to semantan
thank god…at least hands off regular office work…

mon 29/07/13
self extremely busy...
whole day sat down with boss to complete slides
stayback but non claimable

sun 28/07/13
to back or not to back office….
finally self decide to go back office to complete some work
also an opportunity to go over sogo with an objective…
quickly self complete work and off to see susan
told susan I am back from hometown and at work to complete pending task..
susan ask why the hurry back to work..should apply for 1/2days leave
told susan I hate to be home….i miss my friend here..
invite susan for lunch …self willing to wait despite dirt hungry..
but as usual susan will reject my offer…