mon 05/08/13
miss susan much...
she is always on my mind the whole day...
finally unable to trick/bluff self...
went over to sogo but escape susan workstation...
after work skip trip too...
come on...stick to promise...
else i wil scare susan away and no sign of susan is even worst...
dull and unhappy self
miss susan much...

sun 04/08/13
still too tired due to sleepnees night on Friday..
hence overshoot 5am alarm.
up and a short while came u45..
is 6.45am sharp and I can bet is wahab…
only wahab is punctual and responsible
true enough is wahab and glad that wahab is back to u45 today..
hence self plan to jusco to get some stuffs…to board wahab
monitor thru….no sign of mkbm….on leave???
well weather is good…hence go cycling
cycling with different objective….
is not to meet up with mkbm…
cycling to calm thought on susan…
actually self wanted much to be back to office with one objective…
objective is susan…self miss susan much…
but stick to principle…no meet up…..
cyle and cyle to sunburn self…
need to be more macho ….so that I can win susan's heart!!!!!
NO. self not bitch. I dun want to be 3rd party….
I wish susan the best…but deep in heart susan remains THE ONE!!!

sat 03/08/13
whole day mood spoilt….
bad mood…and nothing seems to interest me
even u45 gang routine doesn’t attract my attention too
saw mkbm working despite his birthday…
mkbm target is fei hai….else is just a naïve kid to mkbm…
self just avoid mkbm…
no plan to be with mkbm and have double self hurting…
I am so confuse with susan sms….
actually what is the meaning behind it…
how should I reply without hurting susan…
honestly I think I have  a heart for susan….
its really hurt….

fri 02/08/13
no plan to go sogo….but finally did went over too…
accompany friend to complete some shopping…
of course at the point of entry I have eyes on my target
whether to chat is different story…
coz self is not in good outfit….
but finally cant escape my miss for susan…
went to chat and stupid me even havent eaten despite dirt hungry..
self when a buy a cup of chatime for susan…
knowing is almost time susan have her break
at least can enjoy ...have a break....
this cup of chatime drink spoill the day…!!!!
coz at night receive sms from susan. A surprise sms….
sms mentioned she is married
husband waiting for her to be home for dinner..
ok….self panic at first but later peace down…
ok…self a principle person…
I know what to do...I wont disturb you anymore…
wonder can i stand days without seeing susan???
self feel cut and burst to tears….
sleepness night….disturb…

thur 01/08/13
wow so fast is august……
self feel dull the whole day…..
stay put at office…dun go sogo…
told self too frequent only ends up fist on face…
silence and dull the whole day…

wed 31/07/13
planning to go on leave but plan cancelled due to work load…
back to office to do the needful…
maybe is faith I am back to offce for work…
guess what…during self make timing for lunch break @ 3pm…
bump into susan at bakery shop…
is susan who call me …self was caught aware….
susan look cheerful….after 2 days off…holiday somewhere????
of course being bump into self have mood change…
more aggressive at work….
self turn into market planning to chat but no sign of susan…
hence back to office to complete pending task…


tues 30/07/13
self being transported to semantan
thank god…at least hands off regular office work…

mon 29/07/13
self extremely busy...
whole day sat down with boss to complete slides
stayback but non claimable

sun 28/07/13
to back or not to back office….
finally self decide to go back office to complete some work
also an opportunity to go over sogo with an objective…
quickly self complete work and off to see susan
told susan I am back from hometown and at work to complete pending task..
susan ask why the hurry back to work..should apply for 1/2days leave
told susan I hate to be home….i miss my friend here..
invite susan for lunch …self willing to wait despite dirt hungry..
but as usual susan will reject my offer…