tue 26/11/13
susan on leave..
self almost get accident...
beat red light and eat into other people's lane..
my wrong...but god bless...skip accident...
thank god...

mon 25/11/13
miss susan from pantry
wonder how could I miss it...
hence eager for lunch break...
finally the time arrived...
when over to chat...smile smile smile
after work went over again...
told susan is my pay day...
what would you like to eat...I buy for u...
well susan didn't answer..
well then I will wait till dec 2...hand signal...
both of us smile...dec 2...some signal ...

sun 24/11/13
self celebrate birthday with family...
celebrate in advance..
if ONLY susan can come and join me...
eat but mind focus on susan..
mkbm and wahab is working too...
good combination for the day..

sat 23/11/13
back to office being objective is susan..
but plan spoilt as susan already have plan
lunch plan with colleagues..
hence once again my good deed to recycle bin..sigh...
susan looks marvellous today..
both of us on cap...what a coincident...
pity to know mkbm on full shift..
frankly...last time seeing mkbm on full shift..
self feel uneasy and hurt...
but now...feeling gone...why ???
but still have a heart for mkbm and wahab...

fri 22/11/13
starve self..no susan pls...
able to keep to promise for lunch only..
still went over for susan after work..
both susan and me looks tired...

thur 21/11/13
finally I can meet up with susan after 2 days...
miss much...susan unable to entertain me much...
busy with Christmas deco...

wed 20/11/13
self was transported to xxxx for work..
well is good too.....else self will go over..
being objective is susan...

tue 19/11/13
nothing special..
susan on leave...
dull at work

mon 18/11/13
eagerly waiting for lunch break...
when break comes, went over to chat with susan
ask susan which date she prefer...dec 1 or dec 2
finally susan settle down with dec 2...@ old town..
thanks for coming...
I will wait patiently for this date to come...
celebrate my bithrday with susan...the one I xxxx much/most...

sun 17/11/13
waited long for wahab
but no sign of appearing
to escape mkbm ...just dun know why...
coz lots of work to complete...no time to wait for mkbm/wahab
hence self drive...
self was 30 minutes earlier than susan..
when is about time self stare from office...
yes...finally saw susan...
susan is carrying my bag....THANKS...
also notice susan look over to bank...
erhmmm...who is susan targeting...
sunday who is working....
i guess susan do have a heart for me...
susan i miss you much...hope the same from u...
but both of us cant do much as susan is married..
i wont do anything that harm susan..
i will remain the one aside that LOYAL to you..
hope you have a heart for this naïve kid.....

sat 16/11/13
no sign of wahab
only familiar face is mkbm..
feeling for mkbm is gone ...why???
miss susan much...

fri 15/11/13
pay susan for the battery but susan reluctant to take...
told susan I am having lunch at manhattan fish with collleagues..
I have bought susan lunch as well...
but I cant take away now as timing is far from susan lunch break...
susan reluctant to take initially telling me she have lunch at xxxx
then I told susan I will never forgotten friend...
should I eat good meal so does susan...
self have order a good meal for susan..paid...
when susan have her lunch break just produce the receipt and enjoy..
when back to office send sms to remind susan..
susan reply sms and thank me...
susan you are welcome...dun mentioned...you deserve it..
back straight....no turn in after work..dun disturb..

thur 14/11/13
went over with intention to buy choc..
Christmas edition cute...also have promise to buy...
stick to promise...
bought 2 Christmas edition from susan...
at the same time the lindt Christmas bear edition was out...
cute little bears...
susan ask me the help buy...
but reply is I am loyal to kikkat only...
ehmmm.....should be I am LOYAL to SUSAN ONLY
self ask susan if she want the cute little bear choc...
if susan wants I will definitely buy for her
susan told me no....she feel heaty...ok noted...
then told susan my birthday is at the beginning of dec..
I would like to invite susan to my birthday...
susan pls come....you are the key person...
without your present I will not held any party...
susan presence is important...
then back to office...
noted that susan sentence that she is heaty so buy her some vit c drink..
drink was pass to her and buy additional for lindt lady
I do care much for susan...hope susan realise and appreciate it...
after work I have the best moment....
the hello kitty fan given by susan was malfunctioning..
battery out...so after work went over to buy battery..
looks like everyone there is expecting my presence..
the lindt lady is there to thank me for the drink
is ok...you are welcome....I laugh...
then look for susan....susan the fan given by my friend is running out of battery..
susan ask if I use it...
of course I use then only the battery will drain out...
then susan walk me to cashier 2 which sell battery..
susan selected the right one for me...
of course self extremely happy ...this is a special fan given by susan..
susan smile....snob ah.....snob coz is a special fan from my friend susan..
susan pay for me as I am short of cash...
thanks... smile.....smile all the way home...
sleepness night....good time with susan...

wed 13/11/13
self on leave to run errand...
deep in heart miss susan much

tue 12/11/13
nothing special ...
monitor from pantry...
no sign....could it be I miss it or susan on leave
scroll thru during lunch break
yeah susan on leave..

mon 11/11/13

self went for late lunch just to accommodate susan
pity susan stand the whole day..
self plan to buy susan mcd..
but timing have to be close to susan lunch break...
else food is not fresh....
hence self go for lunch late @ 1.40pm...
long queue afraid might miss chance...
mcd bought...fresh from oven...
enter...scroll thru...no sign...
another scroll and final scroll...
no sign...sigh!!!! why the disappointment...
is a big failure..
after work went again....from far saw susan...
but upon going nearby no sign...
scroll and scroll...no sign...
about the leave bump into susan..
pass the hello kitty soft toy to susan....and left...
cute toy ...hope susan like it...
but self certain hello kitty will be given away to someone..
sigh!!!! why my sincerity is NEVER appreciated..
heart crack...I am hurt...almost cry....
big drama at home...
I am hurt and am adding oil to burn self faster...
only console is saw mkbm at midah junction..
mkbm night shift???

sun 10/11/13
self went back to office...
but for what reason...self also uncertain...
board wahab ...pay...and alight at stn...
at stn..look at timing...
well isn't this time I can bump into susan...
look thru coaches but no sign...
should I wait at stn...then...
well after some thought...no...
coz self is just a barrier to susan...
susan might not like seeing self...
finally enter office straight and quickly to window...
maybe I should monitor susan from office..
train after train finally came susan..
saw susan carrying the investor day bag that I gave her...
self smile with happiness...THANK GOD...
susan didn't throw or give away my goodies to her....
then self look thru susan workstation.....empty...
then went up and saw susan...
we have a short chat...
told susan I wont hurt her...
for susan benefit I will avoid meet up...h1n1 case...
self LOYAL susan...signal...
after short chat self go off....
susan look so beautiful...can be my happy memory..

sat 09/11/13
warehouse sale but self must not enter..
keep to promise..
but self have to enter by force...
coz have to settle payment..
look around but no sign of susan...
or too crowded that I didn't notice...
well back to floor LG...
unintentionally I saw susan...
but uncertain whether susan see me or not...
susan is so pretty...
nothing much self can do...just smile in heart...
god bless...
no sign of wahab...self miss wahab too...
long time didn't board wahab...
only familiar face is mkbm...

fri 08/11/13
saw susan from pantry...
susan is so pretty...argh but ...
self have to keep to promise...
pls behave.....stay indoor...
no susan pls...
sad self...heads down..

thur 07/11/13
self offday...
jday...shopping spree....

wed 06/11/13
at work...
nothing special...
stay indoor...keep to promise...no susan

tue 05/11/13
public holiday..
yahoo...and extra day for self to rest...
sad....miss susan much...

mon 04/11/13
a quite day at work...
nothing special...
miss susan much...
take care susan

sun 03/11/13
nothing special...
just hang around shopping complex and home...
miss susan much....
would like to visit dr bala for greeting ...
but timing just not right....

sat 02/11/13
indian festival...
monitor status...looks good...
saw mkbm working...
ok...is time to reward mkbm..
mkbm pls come out...else meal gone...
mkbm is finally out...
board and have to pay and alight...
then rush for meal and back with mkbm..
waited for few minutes and came mkbm...
upon boarding pass meal to mkbm...
mkbm quote : thank you ah...
my quote : sama
almost home self proceed to the front...
mkbm quote : lama tak Nampak...
my quote : indon..10 hari training kat indon..
mkbm quote : cimb beli bank indo...
my quote : ya cimb niaga
mkbm quote : kenapa tak kerja sana...
my quote : indo ..untuk dia orang saja...
mbkm quote : tak suka sana
my quote : tak suka indon....kawan tak ada...
mkbm  smile...
reach home...alight...smile....
not forgotten susan....I miss susan much..
text to inform is rainy season....
be extra carefull when go home..
wont be coming over for a week ..
is for Susan's safety....
I wont hurt susan...will only give susan the best.....