sun 02/03/14
only familiar face is wahab...
well is being 2 months self didn't board bus...
but I promise I wont neglect my group of u45 friend...
they (u45 friends) are important to self too...
but the one on top of the list I miss most is susan..
susan always appear in my mind...??? why???

sat 01/03/14
dull weekend...go nowhere...
nap after nap...so tired...
mind and body tired
while heart misses susan much...

fri 28/02/14
bad mood continue from yesterday night...
low profile the whole day..
miss susan much....

thur 27/02/14
during lunch break self saw susan but no meet up
yet another day self choose to stay just for susan..
saw susan coming...but...slim chance..
coz train is coming...
susan saw me but choose to avoid self...
susan didn't walk towards self...
susan stand still and wait to board train...
I saw susan stood up on toes for check out self..
susan board train and avoid self...self almost cry out..why???
Is not easy for self to stay...in fear....but self willing to sacrifice..
suddenly feel vibration..is susan who sms self...
I guarantee susan saw self...I am very certain susan does see me...
susan sms me mentioning is about to rain ..we have to home fast
self reply noted...then susan sms again inform don't wait.... waste time...
self almost cry.....why....bad mood the whole night...disturb sleep...

wed 26/02/14
big day...susan back to work...
eager for lunch break..
but before lunch break hope can monitor from my level
miss again...well is being 2 months unable to monitor susan coming...
is susan using another route...
lunch break is finally here...
self went over and straight to susan workstn...
ops susan not around...where...
then scroll to the aisle...saw susan
susan looks pale....self so sad when susan looks pale
susan must have not fully recover yet I guess..
I ask susan how is she feeling today....are u ok...what happened
wanted to tell susan I am worried and misses  her but fear to say so...
ok since susan is ok I went back to office...
self have decided to stay till 7pm for susan..
I want to be back with susan...at least I know susan is safe home..
as a sign of caring as susan is not fully recover yet....
saw susan coming and approaching stn...
susan saw me and come to me asking
why didn't you board the train
self reply I am in no hurry...
but in fact I am waiting for susan, u...
then while waiting for train to come we have a short chat
then susan train is here...saw susan get sitted..
please...I am please...susan is safe on train and heading home...
THANK GOD for the arrangement..

tue 25/02/14
self on leave to run errand
assist brother Kenneth to renew digital cert
then home for self maintenance...
tomorrow is the big day...
susan back to work...

mon 24/02/14
received early sms from susan
susan informed that she will only be back to work on wed
self was so happy upon received susan sms
susan back on wed...ok noted....
but I dun want susan to be back just becoz of meet up and work...
all I want is susan is fully and 100% recover then only to work..
I will wait for coming wed....really miss susan much....

sun 23/02/14
dull sunday...
go nowhere...
none familiar faces too...
left only mkbm...
mkbm...is still one of them that I miss and care too...
miss susan much...wonder how is susan...

sat 22/02/14
sms susan to ask how's she...
is susan getting better and fully recovered...
from sms reply understand that susan just returned home
returned home ...from hospital..
omg...what happened...why hospital...
self panic....susan what happened...
are you seriously ill...self scare...
hence sms susan once more to ask what actually happened...
susan reply she is ok...dun worry....thanks for caring..
susan really scare me...I really care much for susan..
I dun want anything unpleasant to happen to susan...
well. susan rest well...have a good rest...
will pray to god to bless susan for speedy recovery...

fri 21/02/14
dull day at work
susan has such a big influence on self...
since no susan...self just lay low...
wait for time to pass and wrap up the day with dullness...

thur 20/02/14
again at lunch break self went over
finally get to know from Susan's colleague susan is sick
no wonder no sign of susan for the pass 2 days...
wonder how's is susan...
has susan recovered...
hence self send an sms despite knowing there wont be reply from susan
send to ask condition as a sign of caring
surprise susan did reply....susan sick....
will be back to work only on sunday...

wed 19/02/14
self went over during lunch...
but susan not around...
understand from susan colleague susan is off...
thanks for info....
since susan not around no point self stay
home sharp as normal...
well what happened...off day for 2 days....

tue 18/02/14
no point staying..
susan on leave
back home sharp to do daily routine

mon 17/02/14
no hurry for work to be completed...
no one around...left self at office...
self have fear too...
self stay for one objective only...susan...
saw susan coming....but later no sign...
self turn and saw susan in front of self...
self so happy...self only listen and loyal to susan
self signal and susan signal back with a board smile
Susan's smile melts me...susan is so beautiful....
worth the stay despite in fear...
THANK GOD.....

sun 16/02/14
self back to office
to complete pending task and also to meet up with susan
self went over and pass the kfc voucher to susan
is norm susan will reject but later accepted it...
in return susan gave me a nestle crunch bottle
complete collection ...both red and yellow from susan
later in the evening received sms too...
smile from heart....thanks susan...
well at time I think susan is very lucky to have a friend like me...

sat 15/02/14
run errand with sis
coincident bump into lindt lady
well...susan please dun feel upset and dun get angry...
I am loyal to susan only despite all disturbance

fri 14/02/14
chap goh mei and valentines day on the same day
promise self no susan please
to meet up on weekend instead...
if only susan can be with self today to enjoy the special day...

thur 13/02/14
self again have to stay
but no high hope after yesterday incident
but turn out to be good.....
susan saw self and acknowledge self
sri petaling line train is here first...
self say let me send you back first...but susan say no need
as self is tired self go off first...
self burst to happiness and smile from heart...
susan remains the one on my top priority...

wed 12/02/14
self stay just for susan
but why susan avoid self
susan saw me at lrt stn ...honest susan saw me...
but why avoid me...
self sad...almost cry...bad mood...

tue 11/02/14
susan on leave
back home sharp

mon 10/02/14
anxious for lunch break
self went over and saw susan
self show prayers photo to susan
then have a long chat
guess what susan gave me a kikkat mug 4 free
susan cares...susan recommend me to a place after work
a place to rejuvenate sore bones....
as no bosses around...no point stay...
pack and go off...