fri 01/11/13
stay in office...
no susan pls..
wounded...not heal yet...
but deep in heart miss susan much...
dull day...without susan...

thu 31/10/13
monitor susan from pantry..
miss susan but wounded...

wed 30/10/13
self have no intention to go over...
deep in heart self miss susan...
but wound cause by susan not heal yet..
but no choice...
self was force to go over to buy some bis..
saw susan...just ack and blast off...

tue 29/10/13
last respect to uncle seng yun..
notice dr wong came too...
a well manner gentlemen...
sad day...there goes the end life journey of uncle seng yun...

mon 28/10/13
self went for late lunch..
late lunch coz I want to buy susan lunch as well
food delivery to susan got to be fresh...
hence self willing to go for late lunch to accommodate susan
self scroll thru the aisle and finally saw susan...
self pass the food to susan...
susan sound and look tired..
susan quote : I dun want to eat..dun feel like eating...
my quote : why....I am eating so get another portion for u...
self loyal to susan...I wont eat alone...
self also gave 2 bottle of drinking water to susan...
just in case the food is too dry to swallow...
susan thank me and self signal loayl friend...
after work self went over once more despite heavy rain...
self gave the investor day goodies bag to susan...
susan reluctant to take but finally take..
according to susan she will give away the goodies bag as charity..
what!!!! ...is so hard to get and yet is dump off..
heart crack...susan hurt me badly...
self wounded badly......
self was not appreciated just a barrier.....sigh!!!!


sun 27/10/13
sad and sorrow sunday..
uncle seng yun pass away at 6am...
at night we attend his wake...
at his wake process came across a well manner gentleman
is aunty hong's son...
is dr wong a dermatology at Mount Elizabeth Singapore...


sat 26/10/13
self went to investor day seminar
self went with purpose...
to get goodies bag for self and susan as well
then self head to xxxx
I am near to susan but promise self
dun enter dun disturb susan

fri 25/10/13
self went over to inform...
is my payday today...
when can i have lunch with susan....
susan told me today cannot...
well not today...then next week...i will wait...
i will wait for susan to give a date and time...
told susan self will be working tomorrow as well...
to attend seminar on boss behalf....
self lazy to attend but susan told me we have to follow boss instruction..
ok...self heed susan advice...
to attend investor seminar and to get goodies bag for susan...

thur 24/10/13
important day...why???
is a day i can have lunch with susan.
having fix a date to have lunch with susan is tough.
i dun mind waiting till 2pm for lunch..
is a hard and rare opportunity..
well....i dun know about susan...
but to self...self value this opportunity..
we chat and smile during this short lunch break....
thank god for the opportunity.....
susan even bought me a diecast car...wow nice...diecast..
after work drop by to thank susan...
and at the same time help susan buy some choc..
pity susan keep persuade people to buy..
self feel the pain...
but can only help to buy a pack or two only
coz promise susan...to avoid sugar food...

wed 23/10/13
self on leave...
but most important to help susan run errand first..
at btr cimb bank junction bump into mkbm..
surprise mkbm is working morning shift...
apologies mkbm....self got errand to run @ usj..
at evening as courtesy sms susan..
inform self wont drop by after work...
we shall meet up tomorrow...
is my courtesy...rather than let susan keep waiting...
self anxious for tomorrow...

tue 22/10/13
susan on leave...
i was inform susan on leave...
guess what...at night...sms from susan...
is an errand sms...
no problem..is will assist susan to run the errand...

mon 21/10/13
susan send me an early sms...surprise...
sms to inform she bought me breakfast...
self burst into happiness..really...
am i dreamning...breakfast for self from susan...
then self went to pantry and coincident i saw susan..
plastic bag with food...is my food...
susan THANKS....i come lunch break....
wow surprise....monday morning!!!!
finally during lunch break self went over...
susan bought me breakfast and lunch....
THANKS susan...
after work self went over once more to gave goodies to susan....
susan accepted my gifts....
self is generous all goods to susan as gift from me..
told susan is my loyal gift to her...
pls accept and keep it for good...

sun 20/10/13
as courtesy self send sms to susan...
to inform self have bought her order....
susan reply...pity me...hard work...
well...no matter how hard....
as long as is done for susan...
is worth it....
first time long sms with susan...
self smile wide...susan the one i miss most
anxious for tomorrow...i can meet up with susan...
have miss mkbm for some time....
i have reserve today for mkbm...
waited ong for mkbm to come out but ...
too bad mkbm failed to come out....sigh...
miss mkbm...we shall meet up next week end...

sat 19/10/13
arrangement for the day was prefect...
is mkbm, wahab and u48
must catch wahab today....
coz got goodies reserve for wahab....
is an unique indonesia batik bagpack...
finally wahab is out and self went over..
self gave bagpack and wahab ack with thanks...
well...wahab really deserve he reward....
next is mkbm....i miss mkbm too...
but no choice as self got errand to run...
to go to fiesta to get some goodies for susan...
limited units....a must grab for susan...
looks like is mkbm vs susan...
finally self have choosen susan...
mbkm ...i am sorry.....
but self  promise..... mkbm wont be the forgotten one
lastly self arrive at fiesta...
grab some for susan....then head home....

fri 18/10/13

there is an early bus...is must be wahab...
true indeed....salutation for wahab...
lunch break......walk over with no objective...
only to kill time...peep no sign...
then plan to enter market...
about to enter saw susan...
immediate happiness in self...
things and mood change....
smiling all the way...
accompany colleague over with intention to see susan...
left colleague and drop by susan place to say hi..
self pity susan is so busy and self started to help...
many colleagues saw me helping susan...
but i dun care at all...i dun mind what people say or gossip..
all i know is susan is important to self...
nobody is as important as susan...
susan is my motivation and lucky star.....
once back to office even colleague saw my happiness..smiling...
THANK GOD ...THANKS....
i never thought i can see susan again....
after work self went over once more and gave susan the goodies...
goodies have been reserved for susan for weeks...
susan accepted it...we chat and smile and laugh...
once again THANK GOD...
i can NEVER forget today...
smile in sleep..thanks to god and susan...


thur 17/10/13

no high hope...
remain no sign of susan....
internal cut....bloody cry which nobody knows...
my blessing for susan remains...
susan you are the CHOSEN one...

wed 16/10/13

self pronounced dead...RIP
susan left.....


tues 15/10/13

public holiday.....yes a day rest....
self is getting old...aching pain...here and there...
today arrangement .......semi ok....
is old man , wahab and u48 uncle...
wahab working despite is hari raya haji...
hard working compare to useless idiot at office....
no sign of mkbm...
but at 3pm++ saw 8172 coming out....
initially self taught is u48 uncle coz ealier it was u48 uncle
self stand for a while and notice there is head light signal...
oh..is mkbm...self raise hand to ack mkbm...
self remain at gate and ack mkbm when mkbm turns...
self smile and so do mkbm...
at least the day is cheer up by mkbm...
but my miss for susan remains....hope for tomorrow..

mon 14/10/13

well is monday blues ......
at 9.20-9.40 self standby to watch if thre is sign of susan...
waited and waited but no sign ....
then wait for lunch break.....
when lunch break comes...self go over...peep...
no sign of susan....
second peep...no sign too...
give up....browse around other floor....
then final peep...no sign....erghh.....
so sad....as if deep cut in heart....
the whole afternoon till evening...self not well...
again tea break time self peep again...no sign...
not please with result.....
when self go back again hop in....peep..no sign...
caribee....what is happening here....!!!!!
self loss control and destination....so loss...so sad....

sun 12/10/13

initially there is plan to buy mkbm lunch...
but plan cancelled as mum told me on board mum saw fat ass...
fat ass around...hence no point self disturb...
hence lunch plan for mkbm is cancelled...
stay indoor to do housekeeping...
frankly..miss susan much...
is been a week without susan...
erghh...cannot stand...lucky self voulenteer at event...
else self can go crazy!!!!


sat 11/10/13

yes the day where i can see susan...
i have some goodies for susan....
self when over despite tight schedule
no sign of susan...oh gosh...
this is no good...
another round please before i wrap up...
round 2 ...yet no sign...
heads down ....and back to office to keep susan goodies..
then to brother kenneth's exhibition site...
volunteer self ..physical body around
but mind wonder around asking where is susan...
u45 team....yes...today arrangement was best...
but too bad self not boarding them today...
is wahab mkbm and old man...
pity to know mkbm on full shift...
must be tiring....home early...rest well...
GOD bless.....

fri 10/10/13

self back to work....
miss susan much.....
but self been controlling hard....
dun go over.....not the right day!!!!
as self will be going over tomorrow instead....
control self please.....
hence home with seeing susan.....heads down...sad...
keep to promise...


thur 09/10/13

self on leave to run errands...
yellow buddy almost get knock by another vehicle...
is my mistake...forgot about my right hand coming vehicle....
lucky i escape the accident....
THANK GOD for help and blessing....
afternoon onwards go nowhere...rain...
but it was a heavy one in town...leading to flood...
brother kenneth was caught in flood...
reach home only at 9pm...
pity pity....brother kenneth must be exhausted....
have a good rest...
may your hard work be pay off...


wed 08/10/13

self on leave...
volunteer self at event side...
stick to promise....at brother kenneth's office first...
help to carry display material to event side...
volunteer self at event...
back home leg aching pain....imagine susan stand 8-9hours per day...
lucky self pack with activity else self will go crazy with susan...
miss susan much.....may me night prayers be fulfilled...

tues 07/10/13

sleepness night...coz some work to complete for brother kenneth...
alarm rang and self up immediately...
do daily needful and off to work...
start brother kenneth slides.....but interrupt by office work...
short drop by .....no sign of susan...sigh!!!!
brother kenneth again pick me from work ....
dinner and short discussion on slides done...
slides to complete tonight for tomorow event...

mon 06/10/13

self was caught by surprise...
thought susan suppose to be on leave..
but available...self and susan without much taking...
self show i m here to buy simple lunch ...
rush to complete work...
available but looks like a spoilt one..
just a single drop by today...
coz after work got discussion with brother kenneth...
brother kenneth was good...
pick me from bank and bought me dinner...
meanwhile discuss slide show to be put up at event...

sun 06/10/13

no early bus...
only 2 buses for the day..
is young chap and mkbm...
thought of to nearby with mkbm and back with mkbm
at the same time buy mkbm lunch ...
but plannng doesnt work out...
too bad....
self went cycling .....
while cycle look back the pass events self with susan...
self really miss susan....
but doubt the other party will miss self...

sat 05/10/13

wish much self can back to office...
but maybe postpone to sunday...
too frequent meet up is not good....
well today schedule is excellent
is mkbm, u48 guy, wahab...
self board wahab and back with mkbm...
well is just the next bus hence only able to run 1 or 2 errand..
but end up errand fail to execute...
self quickly back to regular stop to be back with mkbm...
mkbm is today main obj....
wait for a short while and came mkbm...
almost home..self walk to the front...
tear open crumpler and gave mkbm a bottle of orange juice...
my quote : ni belanja kawan...cuaca panas...
mkbm : kawan belanja...
my quote: self laugh....kawan belanja...
mbkm : lama tak nampak u...
my quote: saya ada....mungkin jadual tak ngm,,,
saya balik pagi...kerja malam...
reach destination.....self alight...
mkbm : terima kasih...
my quote : terima kasih...
well looks like mkbm is missing self..
mkbm seems to be counting days pass...
well before knowing susan self do miss mkbm much...
self do count days without mkbm...
but since knowing susan and know mkbm has got fat ass...
self let go.....the days counting
self look back the calender and true indeed is 3 weeks self didn't see mkmb...
mkbm wahab susan remain the top priority....
god bless...

fri 04/10/13

busy with audit meeting the whole day...
went over to bakey shop and grab some bread...
self wont eat alone....self will remember to get another serve for susan...
self went to susan workstn and gave her the bread...
is a rush one...deliver and off i go....
after work self again drop by....
self not well...rather pale....a short one with susan...
told susan whole day bsuy with central bank auditing...
next week self wont be around....
follow boss travel north for work...
susan told self she wont be around too...travel back on 11/10/13
well....a week without susan..
can self survive...???? i might go crazy...

thur 03/10/13

self is firm susan is working...
firm coz when self went to pantry to refill water...
self look down....looks like is timing susan arrive for work...
self monitor and true enough self saw susan...
immediate happiest .....self continue with work...
eager for lunch break...
well today menu for subway is my favourite...
would like to invite susan to have lunch with self...
hence self went over to meet up with susan...
gossip gang around but self ignore them...
self invited susan for lunch but was decline...sad..
but susan told me she has got something for me....
ask to wait for her while she get the thing for me..
self ope gift...is a hello kitty mobile table fan...
thanks susan....
after work self went over to meet up with susan and inform test result...
susan just glance thru and say live it to faith....
ask if i like the gift...
well anything from susan of course is nice and unique...


wed 02/10/13

breeze pass by...on the way to mcd for farewell lunch....
opss....no sign of susan....
without satisfaction....after work again another peep...
this peep is from far...no sign of susan as well....
sad self....heads down....
then suddenly saw susan..
ok...looks like susan is working....
just see and blast off....
dare not go near....lots of gossip woman around...

tues 01/10/13

yet another busy day...
back at 8pm as well..
miss susan much..
thanks to heavy work load...
coz self days without susan...self might go crazy....

mon 30/09/13

self busy as bee...
back home at 8pm...
no sign of susan...
miss susan much...

sun 29/09/13

only wahab is working today...
road closure ...std chart marathon...
self pack some fresh fruit for wahab...
wahab thanks me and inform that there is road closure...
thanks wahab for informing...
wahab is good and responsible...never being lazy...
then self and family to xxx....
xxx hence got opportunity to see susan...
well wish to see susan but control...
yesterday only we meet up...too frequent is not good...
then self plan to temple....
to thank god for all smooth things that pass
and do blessing at the same time....