fri 18/10/13

there is an early bus...is must be wahab...
true indeed....salutation for wahab...
lunch break......walk over with no objective...
only to kill time...peep no sign...
then plan to enter market...
about to enter saw susan...
immediate happiness in self...
things and mood change....
smiling all the way...
accompany colleague over with intention to see susan...
left colleague and drop by susan place to say hi..
self pity susan is so busy and self started to help...
many colleagues saw me helping susan...
but i dun care at all...i dun mind what people say or gossip..
all i know is susan is important to self...
nobody is as important as susan...
susan is my motivation and lucky star.....
once back to office even colleague saw my happiness..smiling...
THANK GOD ...THANKS....
i never thought i can see susan again....
after work self went over once more and gave susan the goodies...
goodies have been reserved for susan for weeks...
susan accepted it...we chat and smile and laugh...
once again THANK GOD...
i can NEVER forget today...
smile in sleep..thanks to god and susan...


thur 17/10/13

no high hope...
remain no sign of susan....
internal cut....bloody cry which nobody knows...
my blessing for susan remains...
susan you are the CHOSEN one...

wed 16/10/13

self pronounced dead...RIP
susan left.....


tues 15/10/13

public holiday.....yes a day rest....
self is getting old...aching pain...here and there...
today arrangement .......semi ok....
is old man , wahab and u48 uncle...
wahab working despite is hari raya haji...
hard working compare to useless idiot at office....
no sign of mkbm...
but at 3pm++ saw 8172 coming out....
initially self taught is u48 uncle coz ealier it was u48 uncle
self stand for a while and notice there is head light signal...
oh..is mkbm...self raise hand to ack mkbm...
self remain at gate and ack mkbm when mkbm turns...
self smile and so do mkbm...
at least the day is cheer up by mkbm...
but my miss for susan remains....hope for tomorrow..

mon 14/10/13

well is monday blues ......
at 9.20-9.40 self standby to watch if thre is sign of susan...
waited and waited but no sign ....
then wait for lunch break.....
when lunch break comes...self go over...peep...
no sign of susan....
second peep...no sign too...
give up....browse around other floor....
then final peep...no sign....erghh.....
so sad....as if deep cut in heart....
the whole afternoon till evening...self not well...
again tea break time self peep again...no sign...
not please with result.....
when self go back again hop in....peep..no sign...
caribee....what is happening here....!!!!!
self loss control and destination....so loss...so sad....