tues 03/12/13
is my birthday...
nobody remember it ...
ONLY 9uncle did and send me greeting from melb..
IN APPRECIATION...
no susan...since I have a great fall from 02/12/13 incident...

mon 02/12/13
long life rain...
maybe there is a sad reason behind...sad sorrow day for self
self finally found out self is just a dummy
self top priority is susan but in return I being treated like grass...
no appreciation.
since is raining non stop self run over to susan workstn..
inform susan since you are not well and is raining out there...
dun come over...if body catch cold then you will fall sick...
is for susan good but not appreciated..
I have waiting 5months just for today.
birthday lunch with susan...
but planning turn ugly...cancel..
self was so sad....I cry....self try to hold back
but finally burst out...cry....
why susan treat me so cold.....


sun 01/12/13
self woke up at 4.30am to orhard..
pick up durian and pluck rambutan for friends..
my listing of friends is susan, mkbm and wahab
good day ...both mkbm and wahab woking
hence each of them one bag of rambutan..
then sms susan ask if she would like to have some too..
self willing to send fruits down for susan to take home after work..
oh what a dummy self.....why self reluctant to be dummy...
self get prepare and send down fruits..
waited for susan to finish work..
finally susan came and self say let me send you back as the fruits are heavy
after much persuade finally susan allow me to send her back..
her destination is XXXX......ops...how to go from XXXX
self promise susan...have no fear..i will send you back right to your doorstep..
chat..and smile on journey back to Susan's house...
finally reached Susan's house...
once self home self text sms if sick dun eat those fruits and go on mc..
birthday lunch can postpone...
guess what !!!! I return I get an miserable reply...
till now I doesn't know the meaning behind the reply...
is it ask me to let go and dun disturb her...
I think susan get me wrong...
our relationship is just friend nothing much...
is just a special friend that I care much...
sleepless night due to that reply!!!!!

sat 30/11/13
got birthday lunch appointment with brother Kenneth...
self the main host....can't or must not be late...
but self have to be back to bank first...
then over to meet up with susan...
susan say I look handsome today..
really??? in fact  I am different today...red small fila shirt..
told susan self will be orchard tomorrow
would you like to have durian...
susan says no...as she is heaty and most likely to fall sick...
self noted her sentence...ok then...
then proceed to have lunch with Kenneth and family..
some enjoyable moments...
after lunch self walk all the way to town to buy cooling jelly herbs
special errand just for susan as she is heaty...
back to susan working place but cant be seen..
then waited and finally cooling herbs jelly is being deliver to susan..
hope susan can enjoy and benefit from it...

fri 29/11/13
self went over to show exam result...
at the same time ask if susan would like to have lunch...
lunch at din tai fung...
self willing to run an errand for susan...
but susan rejected offer...is ok then...
lindt lady was around and offer me food...
hence in return self bought back food for lindt lady and susan as well...
after work drop by again to show susan those magnets photos..
both of us laugh and smile...

thur 28/11/13
wish much self can go over for chatting..
but too frequent meet up is not good..
hence avoid....
but join jasni for tea break....
saw susan...pity susan persuade ppl to buy XXX
self feel the pain ...if only I can help...

wed 27/11/13
self sign up for PRS
objective is octo toy..
yes...I got an octo toy..
after work pack octo toy nicely for susan
told susan is a hard earn gift for her...
pls keep..is extremely difficult to get...
dun ever give to anyone...pls....
susan signal octo looks cute...
susan thanks me...
welcome self loyal to susan ONLY..
susan signal back the loyal signal to me...
cheers...smile.