fri 13/12/13
fire at office
work havoc......
self sick but still work from home..
no choice is self shit...hence have to clean
is exactly one week  self didn't see susan
wonder did susan miss self
frankly i does but do susan??

thur 12/12/13
havoc at office..
self sick ...90% on bed..rest...
awake for a while and dose off...
awake but strange that self have no hallucination with susan
neither is thinking about susan
guess i have found the answer...
no more susan..
susan is tired of seeing me ...self a troublemaker...
guess this is the end....with susan...

wed 11/12/13
self on leave
but yet back to office to complete some urgent task..
upon completion self run self errand
collect house title
finally is my house...119 taman sri bahtera
then to political party asking for help on assessment rate..
suddenly self notice red spot or rashes all over hand...
then to clinic...did blood count...
self is down with measles...
quickly self dress up and to office to hand over pending task...
havoc at office...
stop by XXXX, objective is susan...
but promise self no disturb please..hence left
clear up and dose off early...
not well.....tired.....

tues 10/12/13
work as usual..
nothing special..
pain which nobody knows...

mon 09/12/13
I being monitoring but still miss
shit how could i miss it...
self miss susan much but behave...
self is grass....troublemaker...
sigh no point....
went walk around but avoid susan workstn.

sun 08/12/13
up as early as 4am..
ready to go to orchard
pick a lot of durians and rambutan..
if only susan around...
dare not create trouble
all fruits for self and family consumption..
no given out...to avoid trouble...
stay indoor later part of the day...
sigh!!!!

Sat 07/12/13
self back to office to work
clean up some pending issue
timing almost nearby....
will self bump into susan..
saw susan from level 8
she looks beautiful...no nearby pls
self have to behave...susan hate seeing me...
then to fair and back with mkbm
is being a one month plus without boarding mkmb
not a good trip either...fat ass around..
self thinking of susan and tears down...
tears as why not appreciation...
I am a troublemaker !!!!
reach home just acknowledge mkbm and alight at back..

fri 06/12/13
self miss from level 8...
how come self can miss it...
as self got lunch appointment hence go over earlier to see susan
despite heavy work load self still prioritise susan
steal 10-15 minutes of working time
went over to see susan
saw susan arranging stuff..
susan saw me coming too..
self pass the box of vit c effervescent to susan..
guess what !!!! to my surprise
susan says I am a troublemaker and tired of seeing me...
susan says I right in front of me with her language in repeat..
self look dumb....self just being ignorant to it....
self still walk near given instruction how to consume it...
is all for susan good..
since is rainy season and lots of people of there having cough and flu
if susan drinks it daily susan can have a strong immunce system
susan will be strong and wont fall sick..
is just GOOD deed self did
but why end up BAD...
self was so hurt...like a knife stab at chest....
self cry and the day goes moody...
told self that is the end of our friend relationship..
susan never treasure self
self is just a troublemaker and now I know susan hate seeing me..

thur 05/12/13
lunch break went over to see susan
objective to show her the belt
the belt present from susan
just a short one and went off
after work went to dirt expensive pharmacy to get some effervescent
is all for susan that I drop by this pharmacy
get a box of vitamin c effervescent for susan and mom as well
scroll thru aisle ....no sign of susan..
another round...no sign...
is ok...self will go back...wait for tomorrow then.

wed 04/12/13
self  on leave...
went for jday and siku warehouse sale
much like siku construction model
but too expensive...
on the other hand where to display
only keep to collect dust..and who to show off to..
later in the afternoon brother Kenneth called
called to ask if self convenient to borrow him $20K
ok...no problem brother..
self rush all the way to bank to withdraw $
later brother Kenneth drop by home and we went for a drink
pass money to brother Kenneth to deposit as self have limitation...