tue 31/12/13
last day of the year...
well I can say year 2013 pass quickly
this is THANKS to susan appearance...
knowing susan and with susan presence time flies..
from july to dec is just a blink with susan companion
work after work....good too...at least can forgot about susan
since susan on leave I might be bored...
countdown night but self didnt bother much...
just to tired...dose off...slightly late @ 11pm..
know self got not much friends...
only 1 to 2 new year greetings..

mon 30/12/13
a quiet monday....majority on leave....
yahoo..timing was good....saw susan from my level
she is beautiful...
lunch break self went over for a short chat
lucky susan is around and we have a slightly longer chat
from our conversion understand susan has got a daughter..
no surprises...since married...of course got children...
why so unfair to self why!!! is faith I guess.....
told susan dun come to work tomorrow if possible
coz there will be political gathering and count down the same time...
messy hence for ssuan safety I hope susan is not working
and true indeed susan on leave...thanks...I can rest assure susan is safe

sun 29/12/13
self back to work to clean up some pending task
meanwhile second objective is susan
knowing that there is a political gathering
self need to inform susan to be extra careful
scroll thru twice to three times but no sign of susan
finally self saw susan from store with heavy load...
self feel sad..why the heavy load...
if ONLY self can help.....sad self seeing susan
since susan busy with stocks hence no disturb
heads down and back home...

sat 28/12/13
sleepness night...hence up at 4am
clear my load of stack and mess...
then monitor routine...
looks like a good one...
is wahab , old man and mkbm
today agenda is mkbm ...
have been waited long for mkbm...
I have keep some calendar for mkbm
hence board mkbm to town..
mkbm quote : lama tak nampak
my quote : ada
hmmmm.....mkbm miss self....
well self do miss mkbm too...but top priority now is susan..
looks like I have change...
run Susan's errand but errand failed...
coz in order to fulfil Susan's need there is a need authorisation letter
is impossible task hence forget about it...
complete some pending work and back to regular tmstop for mkbm
mkbm :  cepat balik
my quote : balik bank periksa hujung tuhan...duduk bank susah
mkbm : ya ka...
then self get sitted and notice mkbm at time look back mirror
objective is self...
reach home mkbm was stuck...left and right got blockage
hence self wait and monitor and ensure mkbm can pass
once mkbm can pass self signal and so do mkbm
well a good trip with mkbm...after weeks of non boarding mkbm...


fri 27/12/13
busy environment out there...
but self have to go thru the day without susan...
no so frequent...susan might not like it...
hence after work off I go...
promise self no susan till weekend..
think back time flies with susan around...
july to dec is just a breeze when susan around...

thur 26/12/13
back to work
saw susan from my level
she's so beautiful....
lunch break self went over
self gave susan a wood toy car...
susan accepted it with smile...
have a short chat...susan she so beautiful...
honest sentence from my heart...
susan is so pretty.....

wed 25/12/13
public holiday...its Christmas
self  up slightly late...tired...
monitor thru and found is the following...
is wahab, young chap and old man
surprise for the day is receive early Christmas greeting from susan..
I wasn't aware unable I slide phone to see if there is anything....
HAPPIEST CHRISTMAS I can say...
GREETING FROM SUSAN....CHEERS...
susan send me a wishing star hoping my wish comes true
susan I would like much to inform you that my wish have connection with u.
if susan agreed then my wish will come true...else is just to recycle bin
pray hard and bless that susan agrees hence wish can come true....
plan to office to complete work and say THANKS to susan and also to shop
hence follow sibling to shop first then back to office...
but planning out...unable to be back to office...
whole night hope wishing star knows my heart well
wish much susan can fulfil my wish....PLEASE....
pity wahab stuck unable to pass when send us back
self  is good to friend...I wont run away
self stand and try to help wahab until wahab can pass..
finally wahab pass and wahab and self signal thanks..
well..thank you...we are friends...what are friends for...

tue 24/12/13
Christmas eve....
self feel boring without susan
hence let go lunch and back home early
left 1 hour earlier than usual
self tired hence dose off early
previous self use to stay up late on eve to enjoy..
well self getting old...unable to stay up late...
have to admit self aging..

mon 23/12/13
drop by in smart corporate outfit with cufflink and etc...
scroll thru but sad to know susan on leave..
get to know thru the other lady that susan on leave..
sigh....no choice but heads down and back to office

sun 22/12/13
self was having celebration with family
celebration in conjunction with dong jie...
to my surprise susan also drop by the same restaurant...
gosh!!! how now ???
swap sits so that susan doesn't see me...
It was real surprise.....an unexpected catch!!!

sat 21/12/13
is a working  sat
back to office for testing
after testing drop by susan workstn
this is to ensure susan is working today
scroll thru the aisle for susan
aisle after aisle and finally saw susan
susan is so beautiful...honest sentence...
then back home for lunch and self maintenance
after self maintenance another round to town
objective is susan....well can say that I am stupid...
but is worth it...definite worth doing...just for susan
finally I am there....scroll down the aisle for susan
lastly is susan workstn...saw susan and so do susan
self walk near to susan and hand over the calendar to susan
THANK GOD susan accepted it with smile
also susan THANK me and signal loyal and appreciate me...friend..
self was so happy that susan accepted it
and on top of that what please me most is susan signal loyal and appreciate..
is worth it despite begging everywhere for calendar just for susan..
susan also mentioned I look smart with my new haircut...REALLY???
smile and THANK GOD most for the happy moment
well to me susan look extra beautiful today especially when she smiles...

fri 20/12/13
everywhere was crowded with ppl...
but self was so lonely....no personal agenda..
finally to XXX to pass the horse racing calendar to lindt lady
self and lady chat for a short while...
nothing much....just normal conversion...
self still ONLY LOYAL to susan...
I wont switch direction....
understand from lindt lady that there was a burning and explosion...
staffs got injured...
I ask lindt lady whether my friend was affected...
I was so scare...hope nothing...and susan was safe
according to lindt lady my friend haven't come...
as explosion started as early as 10am...business yet to open...
self wanted much to go over to ask susan personally but
afraid that susan might not like it...hence didn't disturb...
at evening when back from work sms susan
asking how is she...is she affected...is she ok...I am worry
susan reply she is ok and THANKS for CARING...
of course I care.....susan you should know well I care much for u....

thur 19/12/13
nothing special
routine as usual...
miss susan much

wed 18/12/13
self have a scare feeling back to work today..
back to work after one week mc due to measles...
scare that I will be blasted of the hot topic XRCEX
but THANK GOD most...
things was smooth...
but what turn ugly was meeting with susan...
is been 2 weeks without seeing susan due to the bad incident...
finally I am back being I miss susan much..
ask susan is she working on Friday...
I have some calendar for u...
susan reply she dun want...she got a lot....
upon hearing this I was so heart sick...but being ignorance...
well I reply you can give it to your friend...then blast off..
self was so heart sick....sick....sick...sick...SHIT!!!!
why susan treat me so cool...I feel so weak...
I just recover and back to work being obj is susan...
but I get this kind of reply and treatment...
no fair...furthermore I being begging everywhere...
begging for calendar just for susan...
all hard work was NEVER being appreciated..
self almost burst but hold on.....must not cry during measles...

tue 17/12/13
nothing special...on mc...on al
shop to waste time...

mon 16/12/13
nothing special ...on mc....on al
idle around doing nothing...
time wasted...

sun 15/12/13
self still sick and weak...
but still back to office...
board early bus which is wahab....
self back to office to clear some pending task
also at the same time to monitor susan...
I miss susan much...more than a week of no sign...
shit...miss...wonder how could I miss

sat 14/12/13
in appreciation that brother Kenneth
as brother deliver the Buddha calendar to me personally...
in appreciation....thanks....

fri 13/12/13
fire at office
work havoc......
self sick but still work from home..
no choice is self shit...hence have to clean
is exactly one week  self didn't see susan
wonder did susan miss self
frankly i does but do susan??

thur 12/12/13
havoc at office..
self sick ...90% on bed..rest...
awake for a while and dose off...
awake but strange that self have no hallucination with susan
neither is thinking about susan
guess i have found the answer...
no more susan..
susan is tired of seeing me ...self a troublemaker...
guess this is the end....with susan...

wed 11/12/13
self on leave
but yet back to office to complete some urgent task..
upon completion self run self errand
collect house title
finally is my house...119 taman sri bahtera
then to political party asking for help on assessment rate..
suddenly self notice red spot or rashes all over hand...
then to clinic...did blood count...
self is down with measles...
quickly self dress up and to office to hand over pending task...
havoc at office...
stop by XXXX, objective is susan...
but promise self no disturb please..hence left
clear up and dose off early...
not well.....tired.....

tues 10/12/13
work as usual..
nothing special..
pain which nobody knows...

mon 09/12/13
I being monitoring but still miss
shit how could i miss it...
self miss susan much but behave...
self is grass....troublemaker...
sigh no point....
went walk around but avoid susan workstn.

sun 08/12/13
up as early as 4am..
ready to go to orchard
pick a lot of durians and rambutan..
if only susan around...
dare not create trouble
all fruits for self and family consumption..
no given out...to avoid trouble...
stay indoor later part of the day...
sigh!!!!

Sat 07/12/13
self back to office to work
clean up some pending issue
timing almost nearby....
will self bump into susan..
saw susan from level 8
she looks beautiful...no nearby pls
self have to behave...susan hate seeing me...
then to fair and back with mkbm
is being a one month plus without boarding mkmb
not a good trip either...fat ass around..
self thinking of susan and tears down...
tears as why not appreciation...
I am a troublemaker !!!!
reach home just acknowledge mkbm and alight at back..

fri 06/12/13
self miss from level 8...
how come self can miss it...
as self got lunch appointment hence go over earlier to see susan
despite heavy work load self still prioritise susan
steal 10-15 minutes of working time
went over to see susan
saw susan arranging stuff..
susan saw me coming too..
self pass the box of vit c effervescent to susan..
guess what !!!! to my surprise
susan says I am a troublemaker and tired of seeing me...
susan says I right in front of me with her language in repeat..
self look dumb....self just being ignorant to it....
self still walk near given instruction how to consume it...
is all for susan good..
since is rainy season and lots of people of there having cough and flu
if susan drinks it daily susan can have a strong immunce system
susan will be strong and wont fall sick..
is just GOOD deed self did
but why end up BAD...
self was so hurt...like a knife stab at chest....
self cry and the day goes moody...
told self that is the end of our friend relationship..
susan never treasure self
self is just a troublemaker and now I know susan hate seeing me..

thur 05/12/13
lunch break went over to see susan
objective to show her the belt
the belt present from susan
just a short one and went off
after work went to dirt expensive pharmacy to get some effervescent
is all for susan that I drop by this pharmacy
get a box of vitamin c effervescent for susan and mom as well
scroll thru aisle ....no sign of susan..
another round...no sign...
is ok...self will go back...wait for tomorrow then.

wed 04/12/13
self  on leave...
went for jday and siku warehouse sale
much like siku construction model
but too expensive...
on the other hand where to display
only keep to collect dust..and who to show off to..
later in the afternoon brother Kenneth called
called to ask if self convenient to borrow him $20K
ok...no problem brother..
self rush all the way to bank to withdraw $
later brother Kenneth drop by home and we went for a drink
pass money to brother Kenneth to deposit as self have limitation...

tues 03/12/13
is my birthday...
nobody remember it ...
ONLY 9uncle did and send me greeting from melb..
IN APPRECIATION...
no susan...since I have a great fall from 02/12/13 incident...

mon 02/12/13
long life rain...
maybe there is a sad reason behind...sad sorrow day for self
self finally found out self is just a dummy
self top priority is susan but in return I being treated like grass...
no appreciation.
since is raining non stop self run over to susan workstn..
inform susan since you are not well and is raining out there...
dun come over...if body catch cold then you will fall sick...
is for susan good but not appreciated..
I have waiting 5months just for today.
birthday lunch with susan...
but planning turn ugly...cancel..
self was so sad....I cry....self try to hold back
but finally burst out...cry....
why susan treat me so cold.....


sun 01/12/13
self woke up at 4.30am to orhard..
pick up durian and pluck rambutan for friends..
my listing of friends is susan, mkbm and wahab
good day ...both mkbm and wahab woking
hence each of them one bag of rambutan..
then sms susan ask if she would like to have some too..
self willing to send fruits down for susan to take home after work..
oh what a dummy self.....why self reluctant to be dummy...
self get prepare and send down fruits..
waited for susan to finish work..
finally susan came and self say let me send you back as the fruits are heavy
after much persuade finally susan allow me to send her back..
her destination is XXXX......ops...how to go from XXXX
self promise susan...have no fear..i will send you back right to your doorstep..
chat..and smile on journey back to Susan's house...
finally reached Susan's house...
once self home self text sms if sick dun eat those fruits and go on mc..
birthday lunch can postpone...
guess what !!!! I return I get an miserable reply...
till now I doesn't know the meaning behind the reply...
is it ask me to let go and dun disturb her...
I think susan get me wrong...
our relationship is just friend nothing much...
is just a special friend that I care much...
sleepless night due to that reply!!!!!

sat 30/11/13
got birthday lunch appointment with brother Kenneth...
self the main host....can't or must not be late...
but self have to be back to bank first...
then over to meet up with susan...
susan say I look handsome today..
really??? in fact  I am different today...red small fila shirt..
told susan self will be orchard tomorrow
would you like to have durian...
susan says no...as she is heaty and most likely to fall sick...
self noted her sentence...ok then...
then proceed to have lunch with Kenneth and family..
some enjoyable moments...
after lunch self walk all the way to town to buy cooling jelly herbs
special errand just for susan as she is heaty...
back to susan working place but cant be seen..
then waited and finally cooling herbs jelly is being deliver to susan..
hope susan can enjoy and benefit from it...

fri 29/11/13
self went over to show exam result...
at the same time ask if susan would like to have lunch...
lunch at din tai fung...
self willing to run an errand for susan...
but susan rejected offer...is ok then...
lindt lady was around and offer me food...
hence in return self bought back food for lindt lady and susan as well...
after work drop by again to show susan those magnets photos..
both of us laugh and smile...

thur 28/11/13
wish much self can go over for chatting..
but too frequent meet up is not good..
hence avoid....
but join jasni for tea break....
saw susan...pity susan persuade ppl to buy XXX
self feel the pain ...if only I can help...

wed 27/11/13
self sign up for PRS
objective is octo toy..
yes...I got an octo toy..
after work pack octo toy nicely for susan
told susan is a hard earn gift for her...
pls keep..is extremely difficult to get...
dun ever give to anyone...pls....
susan signal octo looks cute...
susan thanks me...
welcome self loyal to susan ONLY..
susan signal back the loyal signal to me...
cheers...smile.